Translation of the song lyrics Reissende Blicke - Lacrimosa

Reissende Blicke (original)

Ich sitze im Kino meines Lebens
Alle Plätze sind belegt
Mein Platz ist nur ein Notsitz
Zu viele Menschen sind heute hier
Das Licht geht aus, der Film beginnt
Erinnerungen steigen wieder auf
Längst Vergessenes wird wieder Gegenwart
Ein fremdes Ich glotzt mir ins Gesicht
Ich blicke in die Menge
Das ganze Kino lacht
Ein Krüppel treibt in den Fluten
Und mir wird schlecht
Ich schäme mich
Ein von gestern geprägtes Heute
Ich erinnere mich an damals
Die Frage um Leben und Tod
Heute weiß ich die Antwort, damals nicht
Ich habe falsch entschieden
Und wieder lacht das Kino
Ich stehe auf und stürz' hinaus
Ich muss mich übergeben
Der Hass schlägt auf
Werden sie mich im Licht erkennen?
Werden sie auch dann noch lachen?
Wieso gehen sie nicht alle nach Hause?
Es ist doch nur mein ganz privates Leben
Ich komm' zurück, mein Platz ist besetzt
Ich setz' mich still auf den Boden
Ich will schließlich sehen, was mit mir noch geschieht
Ich kenne meinen Sinn noch nicht
Ich hoffe nur, ich sterbe rasch
Damit ich die Demut nicht mehr ertragen muss
Es tut mir leid, wenn mein Leben jemand störte
Doch gab es einen Film, den sie mochten
Der Film zeigt meinen Tod
Endlich darf auch ich mal lachen
Doch tausend Augen drehen sich herum
Und blicken mir entsetzt entgegen
I’m sitting inside the cinema of my life
All seats are taken
My seat is just a dickey-seat
Too many people are here today
The light fades — the movie starts
Memories come up again
A distant past become present once again
A strange «me"stares at my face
I look around in the crowd
The whole cinema laughs
A cripple’s drifting in the water
I get sick
I’m ashamed
A today impressed by yesterday
I remember that time
The question of life and death
Today I know the answer
That time I didn’t
I had made the wrong decision
And again the cinema laughs
I stand up and rush out
I’ve got to vomit
The hate hits me
Could they recognize me in the light?
Could they laugh at me again?
Why don’t they all go home?
It’s just my very private life
I’m coming back, my seat is taken
I quietly sit down on the floor
Yet I want to know what will happen to me
Yet I don’t know my sins
I’m only hoping to die soon
Thus I don’t have to stand it any longer
I’m sorry if my life disturbed somebody
But at least there was a movie they liked
The movie shows my death
Finally it’s my turn to laugh
But thousand eyes turn round
And stare shocked at me

Reissende Blicke (translation)

I'm sitting in the cinema of my life
All seats are occupied
My seat is just a jump seat
Too many people are here today
The lights go out, the film begins
Memories rise again
The long forgotten becomes present again
A stranger stares at my face
I look at the crowd
The whole cinema laughs
A cripple floats in the waves
And I'm getting sick
I am ashamed
A today shaped by yesterday
I remember back then
The question of life and death
I know the answer now, but not then
I made the wrong decision
And again the cinema laughs
I get up and rush out
I have to throw up
Hate strikes
Will they recognize me in the light?
Will they still laugh then?
Why don't they all go home?
It's just my very private life
I'll come back, my seat is taken
I sit quietly on the floor
I finally want to see what will happen to me next
I don't know my purpose yet
I just hope I die quickly
So that I don't have to endure the humility anymore
I'm sorry if someone disturbed my life
But there was one movie they liked
The film shows my death
I can finally laugh too
But a thousand eyes turn around
And look at me in horror
I'm sitting inside the cinema of my life
All seats are taken
My seat is just a dickey seat
Too many people are here today
The light fades—the movie starts
Memories come up against
A distant past become present once again
Strange «me"stars at my face
I look around in the crowd
The whole cinema laughs
A cripple's drifting in the water
I get sick
I'm ashamed
A today impressed by yesterday
I remember that time
The question of life and death
Today I know the answer
That time I didn't
I had made the wrong decision
And again the cinema laughs
I stand up and rush out
I've got to vomit
The hate hits me
Could they recognize me in the light?
Could they laugh at me again?
Why don't they all go home?
It's just my very private life
I'm coming back, my seat is taken
I quietly sit down on the floor
Yet I want to know what will happen to me
Yet I don't know my sins
I'm only hoping to die soon
Thus I don't have to stand it any longer
I'm sorry if my life disturbed somebody
But at least there was a movie they liked
The movie shows my death
Finally it's my turn to laugh
But thousand eyes turn round
And stare shocked at me