Translation of the song lyrics Sendin Düşmanım - Sena Şener

Sendin Düşmanım (original)

Ne düşman bilir, ne kışı sever
Ruhumda cevher, kendim olurdum
Gözlerim kısık, belki de aşık
İçimde bir ışık, derdim olurdun
Git, hadi git, yine git, yine gitme
Gör, ve de bil, bil ki git, yine gitme
Korkarken kendimden, titrerken ellerim
İsterken yarınları seninle, göremedim
Bilirken içini, kaldım hep dışında
İsterken yaşamayı seninle, bilemedim
Sendin, düşmanım
Gittikçe içime kapandım
Çoğu zaman kendimden utandım
Sendin, düşmanım
Ne insan bilir, ne doğru söyler
Sadece bekler, hata bulurdun
Gözlerin açık, kendine âşık
İçimdeki ışık, derdin olurdu
Git, hadi git, yine git, yine gitme
Gör, ve de bil, bil ki git, yine gitme
Korkarken kendimden, titrerken ellerim
İsterken yarınları seninle, göremedim
Bilirken içini, kaldım hep dışında
İsterken yaşamayı seninle, bilemedim
Sendin, düşmanım
Gittikçe içime kapandım
Çoğu zaman kendimden utandım
Sendin, düşmanım

Sendin Düşmanım (translation)

Knows not the foe, nor loves the frost’s dominion,
A buried gem within my soul—I might have shaped myself anew,
My eyes half-closed, as if a moth bewildered by the sun,
A lantern’s ember in my chest, you were my secret ache,
Go, then go—return and vanish, yet do not disappear,
See—and behold, know this: depart, yet do not stray,
Afraid of my own shadow—my hands shivering like leaves in wind,
I reached for dawn beside you, yet tomorrow stayed unseen,
Though I beheld your depths, I ever wandered at your threshold,
Yearning for life at your side, yet its meaning eluded me,
You—it was you, my adversary,
With each day, I drew further inward,
So often, I burned with shame for myself,
You—it was you, my adversary,
Neither soul discerns nor speaks the honest word,
Only waiting, ever searching for a flaw to name,
Your eyes are open, enamored of their own reflection,
The glow within me—how it would become your sorrow,
Go, then go—return and vanish, yet do not disappear,
See—and behold, know this: depart, yet do not stray,
Afraid of my own shadow—my hands shivering like leaves in wind,
I reached for dawn beside you, yet tomorrow stayed unseen,
Though I beheld your depths, I ever wandered at your threshold,
Yearning for life at your side, yet its meaning eluded me,
You—it was you, my adversary,
With each day, I drew further inward,
So often, I burned with shame for myself,
You—it was you, my adversary