Translation of the song lyrics Ko'ngil - Шохрух

Ko'ngil (original)

Charchadim maqsadsiz yashash tarzidan
Aqlim uzra sarhadlarimning zabt etilganidan
Man huddi qulman, nafsimga arzon sotilgan
Huddi mahbusman, o’limga hukm qilingan
To’g’ri deb bilib havoi-safoni
Unutdim qalbim qo’rg’onini
Har bir harakatim yaratdi o’zimga qarshi bo’lgan qurolni
Unutdim yana nafs degan dushmanning hiylasini
Aqlimni asir oldi, har turga solib holatimni
Sog’inmadim oddiyona beg’ubor hayotimni
Sukut saqlamoq yo yana savollar bilan tutilmoq
Hammasi chalkashib ketdi bekorga
G’animatimni topshirdim nafs degan dushmani hiylasiga
O’zim esa shunchaki qulman unga
Nuqta qo’ygim kelardi hammasiga
Ammo ko’ngil yana u, yana man, yana u
Xatolardan bo’lak nelar qoldi manda?
Ko’ngil yana u, yana man, yana u
Singan haqiqatdan bo’lak nelar qoldi ko’nglimda?
Negadir dilimni og’ritadigan so’zlarni
Ko’pligidan chalkashdim
Har bir so’zlar tikan kabi botadi qalbimga, yuragimga
Gar yetmay qolsachi umrim?
Balki ertaga ohirgi bekat, ulgurishim kerak
Har hil holatdagi yaxshi amallarga
Gar nazar tashlasam razolatu xiyonatdan
Boshqa hech narsa ko’rinmas ortimda
Tobora iste’moli zinoyu safodan
Ularning oldida o’zim bosh egdim
Lek yurak egmadi, u yana mag’rur edi
U bir insonni deb urar edi
Man esa ranjitdim kimlarni deb uni
Man bosh egmadim yurak esa egdi
Man mag’rur edim yuragim esa sevardi
Yu-yuragi sevardi
Ko’ngil yana u, yana man, yana u
Xatolardan bo’lak nelar qoldi manda?
Ko’ngil yana u, yana man, yana u
Singan haqiqatdan bo’lak nelar qoldi ko’nglimda?
San ayt, nega ketding?
San ayt, mani kimlarga alishding?
San ayt, yana nelarni istardi bu ko’ngling?
San ayt, nega endi qaytding?
Ayblama san mani
Hamma ayb jilovi yo’q nafsingda
Hamma ayb o’zingda
Man esa kutardim
Sani ko’z yoshlar bilan ko’zlarimda
Bedor tunlarimda
Do’st bilib sabrni tunlarim uzun kunlarimdan
San esa hatlab o’tding beayb tuyg’ularim ustidan
Nafsingni deb yuz o’girding jonim mandan
Orada sevgi uvol ovora
Ko’nglim esa parcha bo’lib ming bora
Barglar to’kilib kelsa kuz eslagin mani
Yog’ib oppoq qor kelsa qish eslagin mani

(translation)

I'm tired of a pointless lifestyle
Because my borders have been conquered over my mind
I am like a slave, sold cheap to my desires
I'm a prisoner, sentenced to death
That's right- this is not about me
I forgot the fortress of my heart
Every move I made was a weapon against me
I forgot again the trick of the enemy called lust
It captured my mind, my condition in every way
I did not miss my simple life
To remain silent or to be caught up in questions again
It was all in vain
I surrendered my booty to the deceit of the enemy of lust
And I'm just a slave to him
I want to put an end to everything
But the heart is again, again, again
What's wrong with me?
Heart again, man again, again
What is left in my mind but the broken truth?
Words that hurt my heart for some reason
I'm confused
Every word pierces my heart like a thorn
What if my life is short?
Maybe the last stop tomorrow, I have to make it
To good deeds in any situation
If I look, it is a disgrace and a betrayal
Nothing else is visible behind me
Increasing consumption of adultery
I bowed before them
Lek didn't give up, he was proud again
He would hit a man
And I said who offended him
I did not bow my head, but my heart bowed
I was proud and my heart loved it
Yu-heart loved it
Heart again, man again, again
What's wrong with me?
Heart again, man again, again
What is left in my mind but the broken truth?
Tell me, why did you leave?
Tell me, who did you exchange me for?
Tell me, what else would you like?
Tell me, why are you back now?
Don't blame me
It's all in your innocence
It's all your fault
I was waiting
I have tears in my eyes
In my sleepless nights
My friend, I have been patient all night long
And you jumped over my innocence
You turned your back on me, my soul
There is no love
And my heart is a thousand times in pieces
Remember the fall when the leaves fall
Remember the winter when it snows