Lyrics Can't End Myself - Insane Clown Posse

Can't End Myself

This is a tale
A long forgotten tale of wicked mayhem
A man whose own personal Hell was his own life on earth
So therefore, in Hell, he was granted just that:
Eternal life on earth
I shot my wife in the head.
I blamed the bitch for everything
She’s the reason I failed.
It’s 'cause of her I ain’t a king
I tried to carry on;
I couldn’t.
My decision: suicide
I put the shotgun in my mouth and whipped my
I felt my world shake.
I felt my thoughts catch on fire
My skull exploded in my head.
Tremendous pain was acquired
My body hit the floor.
I felt cool air hit my brain
All the same, I still remain.
My pulse maintain
I ran into the bathroom.
I checked myself in the mirror
I had a bloody mouth, and plus the back of my head wasn’t there
I’m steady bleeding.
I started freaking, ran and jumped through the glass
Some thirty feet into the driveway.
I smashed at last, I passed
But not so fast.
I’m still alive, and I’m driving
I thought about giving it up and going to a hospital
But then I seen a truck coming.
Fuck it.
I hit the bitch dead on
I walked away minus a head and an arm
('nitruh m’I .deyonna tog I litnu ssa tuo tihs gnikcuf rehtom eht dewalc tI.
yot a ekil ydob ym koohs dna edis ym no swal sti dekcol tI .noil a
deppals-hctib pu thgiarts dna ooz eht otni llaw a deppoh I?
gniyd em dna em
htiw pu s’tahW)
I can’t end myself
I have no head
No fuckin' head!
People are trippin' on me.
I’m looking like the living dead
I can’t explain my situation 'cause I have no fucking head
I just keep trying to die.
What’s up with me and me dying?
I hopped a wall into the zoo and straight up bitch-slapped a lion
It locked its laws on my side and shook my body like a toy
It clawed the mother fucking shit out my ass 'til I it got annoyed
I’m hurtin' heavy now.
I took some sedatives to relax
About two hundred Xanax and passed out on the train tracks
I scored some Anthrax.
I rocked it up and did a few lines
I smoked it up and tried to shoot it through my neck a few times
I’m trying to talk through my neck hole, but everybody’s runnin'
It’s only gurgles, and all this fucking blood won’t stop comin'
I got into the bathtub and cut my legs off with a saw
I tried to bleed to death, but filled the tub, more blood than I ever saw
Won’t stop comin'.
My heartbeat won’t stop drummin', I’m bummin'
I’m just a headless paraplegic on a skateboard.
Help, someone
('nitruh m’I .deyonna tog I litnu ssa tuo tihs gnikcuf rehtom eht dewalc tI.
yot a ekil ydob ym koohs dna edis ym no swal sti dekcol tI .noil a
deppals-hctib pu thgiarts dna ooz eht otni llaw a deppoh I?
gniyd em dna em
htiw pu s’tahW)
I’m trying to end myself (End myself)
No legs
No fuckin' head
One arm left, on a skateboard
Still got my arm, and I’m scootin', people givin' my ass a bootin'
Thank got these slutty-ass hooker hoes be out here prostitutin'
I got my dick sucked, I get it bitch, I rock of the Anthrax
She smoked that shit, and her heart exploded, fuckin' blew out her back
I tried to scoot along, but a big stray dog locked onto my arm
And then it dragged me to a dumpster with about fifteen more of them
And I was punchin' on 'em.
I ain’t gonna die, and they bitin' my ass
I found a beer bottle.
I broke it and started stabbin' 'em with the glass
I pull myself on, grab the bumper of a passing Grenada
I’m hangin' it, draggin' rocks and gravel, hurting a lot
I’m about to fall out.
We hit a corner, and I hit a tree hard
And with my broken-ass arm, I crawled into somebody’s yard
And in the shed, I found a wood chipper.
I thought, «This is it»
I pulled it out and got it runnin' and climbed into that bitch
And now I can’t explain the horror or the pain.
I’m still here
But I feel myself being eaten by the maggots, each piece, everywhere
SuseJ says, Lord, I stand at the door and knock
Yadot traeh ruoy fo rood eht no gnikcon si suseJ
Burn for
Salvation of me
And of my words
My words
Are in Jesus
As sinful
As sinful