Translation of the song lyrics Manaliyim - Cankan

Manaliyim (original)

Ates kop yüregimden
buruk buruk ben oldum
koptu kalbim yerinden
saga sola savruldum
uçurum gelip buldu beni sürüklendim hep durdum
bir adim gitmez geri canimdan oldum
neler oldu bak neler kestiler yollarimi
sonu gelmeyen darbeler kirdilar umutlarimi
simdi cikmaz yoldayim hem darda hem zodayim hesabi bitmeyen sahneler
can aldi birer birer
yandim yandim bicaga dayandim canimi aldin hazirmiyim
boynumu büktün adimi yaktin kalbimi vurdun dayanirmiyim
sirtimi döndüm kursun dünya geri dönüp bakarmiyim
kaç kez vurdu kaç kez öldü yanar yaram sararmiyim
Öyle yorgun durgunum ki sussam bile manaliyim
ondan baskasi anlamaz beni dönmem artik kararliyim
kapina geldim ya Ya Rabbi icim yangin yaraliyim
sen affetmessen beni bilmem buna dayanirmiyim…
canimi yaktilar kullanip köseye attilar kapattilar isiklarimi yalnizliga idam
ettiler beni
dayanir mi küçük kalbim buna
kaldirir mi bunlara alisirmi korkulara savasirmi sen olmayinca
hani insan bir an bütün umutlarini kaybedip bir köseye çaresizce yumulur
kalbine igneler batar ya bedeni buruk buruk olur karanliklara kapilip deli
rüzgarlara kendini birakir saliverir atar ya
ates olur etrafi sagi solu görmez icinden bir feryat ALLAH diyip yüregini yakar
ya
bende öyle savrulmus sarsilmis bir halde geldim sana Ya Rabbi çikmaz yol
bilmiyorum senden baska görmüyorum geri çevirip öldürme beni eskilere döndürme
beni keske Allahim yolunda bir toprak olsam Insanlar üstüme basarak sana gelse
ne görülsem nede anilsam ne bilinsem nede sorulsam sadece senin yolunda
kaybolsam pismanim Ya Rabbi hemde coook
yandim yandim bicaga dayandim canimi aldin hazirmiyim
boynumu büktün adimi yaktin kalbimi vurdun dayanirmiyim
sirtimi döndüm kursun dünya
geri dönüp bakarmiyim kaç kez vurdu kaç kez öldü yanar yaram sayarmiyim
Öyle yorgun durgunum ki sussam bile manaliyim ondan baskasi anlamaz beni dönmem
artik kararliyim kapina geldim ya Ya Rabbi icim yangin yaraliyim sen
affetmessen beni bilmem buna dayanirmiyim…

(translation)

Take fire from my heart
I've been bad
my heart broke
I've been thrown left and right
The abyss came and found me I drifted I always stopped
I don't take a step back, I'm back
what happened look what they cut my way
endless blows broke my hopes
Now I'm on the way
took life one by one
I burned, I burned, I stood on the knife, you took my life, am I ready?
You broke my neck, you burned my name, you hit my heart, can I hold on
I turned my back, let the world go back and see
How many times did he hit me? How many times did he die?
I'm so tired that even if I keep quiet, I'm meaningful
no one but him will understand me, now I'm determined to return
I came to your door
If you don't forgive me, I don't know if I can stand it...
They hurt me, they used me, they threw me in the corner, they turned off my lights, they executed me alone
they made me
can my little heart bear it
Will he remove it, will he get used to them, will he fight the fears without you?
You know when a person loses all hope for a moment and falls helplessly in a corner.
Needles pierce his heart, his body becomes achy
he surrenders himself to the winds
there will be fire, as soon as he can't see the right and left, a cry inside him says GOD and burns his heart
either
I came to you in such a swayed and shaken state, O Lord, the dead end
I don't know I don't see you but you don't kill me don't turn me back
I wish I was a land in the way of Allah If people came to you by stepping on me
Whether I'm seen or remembered or known or asked, only on your way
I regret if I get lost Ya Rabbi
I burned, I burned, I stood on the knife, you took my life, am I ready?
You broke my neck, you burned my name, you hit my heart, can I hold on
I turned my back, let the world
can i go back and see how many times he hit me how many times he died can i count my wounds
I am so tired that even if I keep quiet, I am meaningful, no one but him will understand me, I will not return
I'm determined now, I've come to your door
If you don't forgive me, I don't know if I can stand it...