| I never really had the guts to look under that log
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| I need them all, all, all to love me
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| But they see through me so easy
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| I wish I could believe in your God
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| Sounds fun! |
| We could throw rocks out of heaven
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| I get these dark thoughts every day now
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| I never thought I’d be that one
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| Good news I’m way too scared to do it
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| And I have too much fun being scared
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| I’m in this for life
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| Like it or not
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| I’m not going anywhere, anywhere
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| I’m in this for life
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| Like it or not
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| You will have to drag me by the neck
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| I’m not gonna bail
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| Writing on the ceiling of the box while the coffin the nailed
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| California dreamin while the demons are hot on our tail
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| Hop a curb, yes that was me offa the trail officer
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| No, I don’t have a good reason
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| I was just in a mood to go seeking
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| Heard a hard poem, it had my heart thumpin
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| Start my blood pumping again
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| This one is for the people who raised me up
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| It’s for the people who raised me up
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| If you remember one thing then remember how it felt
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| When you felt for the first time
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| This one is for the people who raised me up
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| It’s for the people who raised me up
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| If you remember one thing then remember how it felt
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| I’m in this for life
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| I’m not going anywhere, anywhere
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| I’m in this for life
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| Drag me by the neck
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| You want your holy grail
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| Try not to overthink it
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| I try but always fail
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| But I want it so damn bad
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| I’m addicted to life
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| If I lived how I thought that you want me to live
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| I don’t think you’d like what you got
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| If I shot my poetry out of a cannon
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| Would it make it any better?
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| If you fill a gun with glitter
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| What’ll become of the bullet
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| If you’re only suffering under a vail
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| I’m in this for life
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| Like it or not
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| I’m not going anywhere, anywhere
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| I’m in this for life
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| Like it or not
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| You will have to drag me by the neck
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| This one is for the people who raised me up
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| It’s for the people who raised me up
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| If you remember one thing then remember how it felt
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| When you felt for the first time
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| This one is for the people who raised me up
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| It’s for the people who raised me up
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| If you remember one thing then remember how it felt
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| I dreamed I understood myself completely
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| We were having a party in a house falling out of the sky
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| Every clique showed up
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| The ones who love the small of gasoline
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| The shy beautifuls
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| The microphone eaters
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| The gimme gimme gimmes
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| The maybe next years
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| The boring childhooders who trashed their lives for fun
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| The house rotated as it made it through a storm,
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| Eyeball-sized hail sailed sideways through the windows
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| As the single pane, survived-the-great-fire hundred-year-old glass all smashed
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| We laughed and dropped the hailstones in our drinks and danced
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| We started chanting some optimistic that we knew that it was maybe mostly
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| bullshit
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| But that if we even still felt one tenth of one percent how we felt in that
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| moment in the morning that it would be an energy could shake neighborhoods from
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| their foundations
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| We dragged ourselves on a twenty-mile mission to fill our goblets in the kitchen
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| Got stopped by a hallway goblin named Frank who said he once dreamed Karl Marx
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| and Rosa Parks were beating the shit out of him which gave him a full body
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| orgasm
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| I told him my dad analyzes dreams for a living and believes they’re portals to
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| the subconscious
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| I don’t judge you we’re all weirdos,
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| My dad still refuses to drive beamers because they made cars for Hitler
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| But I always suspected that was convenient logic for a family that could only
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| afford used station wagons
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| I told him in a drawer in my house I found a matchbook from my dad’s 1955 Bar
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| Mitzvah
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| It still has nine dry unused matches that haven’t been torn from the cardboard
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| It’s a time machine and remains my second most precious possession
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| Do you understand this Frank? |
| You’re in presence of a motherfucker who owns
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| fire from the past
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| Can you imagine getting high with a flame from 1955? |
| Can you?
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| Do you feel connected to your ancestors? |
| Do you?
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| Do you ever feel strange? |
| Wonder how the world’s gaze has shaped you?
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| Do you fear being shaken by the shoulders like an etch a sketch
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| Being mugged for your memories? |
| I do
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| They are my first most prized possession |
| My very first memory was sitting in high chairs with my brother the day the Bay
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| ripped in two
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| The earthquake shook the china from the shelves and we clapped because we
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| didn’t understand
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| I told him my mother’s father died in a plane crash
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| I told him my brother grew up to be a pilot
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| The captain, which apparently the apparently the building had and was my
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| brother, came over the intercom, which apparently the building had,
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| and alerted the party that house was starting the spin faster and soon it
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| would be time to hit the ground, so either buckle your seatbelts say your
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| prayers or find someone to fuck
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| It was all true, China was smashing against the ceiling
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| Me and Frank said our goodbyes easily once I realized I’d been having a
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| conversation in the mirror. |
| I climbed out a window and hung onto a drain pipe
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| and watched the stars paint the sky
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| Little boxes
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| On the hillshide
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| Elbows ass and my knees and toes
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| I got my elbows ass and my knees and toes
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| Little boxes
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| On the hillshide
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| Elbows ass and my knees and toes
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| I got my elbows ass and my knees and toes
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| I see the ghosts on every corner
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| Of the people that we used to be
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| So many that they sit upon the shoulders
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| Of their brothers and their sisters
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| While our city slips into the sea
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| Danny in DC Tee getting stomped in the head on Clement St
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| Kids in the black boots
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| Dad’s got the long hair, dad’s hired, getting fired
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| Everybody waveMe in the ambulance!
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| Mom’s got my pills in the paper bag, bills on the table
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| That was before they were really real people
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| And the punks grabbed my bike in the Safeway parking lot
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| Chased em for five blocks, never got it back
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| We were already fading I just didn’t know it yet
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| Holding onto the lie of my perfection tucked under my arm like a late
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| Blockbuster cassette
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| And fuck yeah I was hard for miss popular
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| Been jockin her but she couldn’t see where I sat with binoculars
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| Binaca stashed in my pocket, shot the good shot, the good lord, she blocked it
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| Cherish the small the tragedies
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| The big ones are smoking out in the bathroom and loitering for the moment when
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| nobody sees em coming, an opening they can jump in make a total catastrophe
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| My family tried to hold it together
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| But now that we can’t hold it together
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| We hold each other closer instead
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| Danny in the deep blue Sea getting wasted on the MUNI out to DP
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| Kids with the tall cans
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| Dad’s got the short hair, dad’s not retired quite yet
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| Every wavebodyMe in the ambulance!
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| Mom’s plays guitar and she sings to us near to us
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| That was before we were really real people
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| And the Punks grabbed my bike in the Safeway parking lot,
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| Chased em for five blocks, never got it back
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| Little boxes
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| On the hillside
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| There’s a blue one and a yellow one
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| And they all look just the same |