
Date of issue: 29.07.2021
Age restrictions: 18+
Song language: English
Several Years |
Lately, all I feel is pain |
Feels like my heart doesn’t beat the same |
I wanna give up and I just feel stuck |
In a life that I know I can not change |
I’m really lonely and feel drained |
Sometimes I feel like a mistake |
I just sit and dwell in my trauma |
My life’s full of problems |
I feel like I might break |
Tried to move on, but I just can’t |
Breakdown after breakdown and somedays |
I wish I could run away, just to escape |
And feel at ease even if it means one day |
Where did my life go wrong? |
I was a happy teen and now I’m an adault |
Who’s sad as hell and always at a loss |
No one tell I’m drowning in my thoughts |
I’m still lost tryna find purpose |
After all these years, I’m still searching |
Hope you forgive me for being a burden |
Self-love is something that I’m still learning |
And I know I lie when I tell you I’m fine |
'Cause nobody knows I’m struggling inside |
Sorry if you see me cry |
It’s just I finally realized |
It’s been several years |
Since I felt okay |
I’m losing my way and |
It’s been several years |
Since I’ve been on meds |
I still feel depressed and |
It’s been several years |
Since I felt alive |
There’s no tears to cry and |
It’s been several years |
Since I had a friend |
That came and went |
Lately, I feel so depressed |
Tried to get help, but I’m still a mess |
I don’t ever rest, I guess I’m stressed |
Got my head down, hands gripping on my neck |
Did I take my last breath? |
Did I walk my last step? |
I’m alive, but inside I am dead |
Look, I lied, I’m not fine 'cause my mind is a wreck |
I saw pictures of me in elementary |
I don’t remember teachers ever telling me |
I’d be an adult who senses people’s energy |
Being an empath, attracts those who lack empathy |
When I look back, my past shows me bad memories |
Plus, it’s so sad, I had to withstand everything |
All for my last, ex damn, thought you’d stand next to me |
You stab my back and that hurt me bad mentally |
It definitely changed me, but I forgive you |
I understand now that you had your own issues |
Your fear of abandonment really convinced you |
That you weren’t enough for the love I would give you |
I tried, but I broke myself tryna fix you |
And I feel hurt that you couldn’t commit to |
Me or the love I would give you |
Nobody knows what I been through |
It’s been several years |
Since I felt okay |
I’m losing my way and |
It’s been several years |
Since I’ve been on meds |
I still feel depressed and |
It’s been several years |
Since I felt alive |
There’s no tears to cry and |
It’s been several years |
Since I had a friend |
That came and went |
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They Just Left Me Here | 2021 |
Drowning | 2021 |
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Idgaf | 2017 |
They Don't Even Know | 2021 |
Tear Me Apart | 2017 |
Going Ghost | 2021 |
Better Alone | 2021 |
Why'd You Leave? | 2022 |
Legendary ft. Sik Kid | 2015 |
I'm Distant | 2021 |
So Alone | 2014 |
Save Yourself | 2022 |
I Don't Even Know | 2018 |
iHate | 2016 |
EMERGENCY! | 2022 |
Somethin Real ft. Kira Kosarin, Sik World | 2019 |