Song information On this page you can find the lyrics of the song SAVE MYSELF, artist - Ryan Oakes. Date of issue: 07.01.2021
Age restrictions: 18+
Song language: English
SAVE MYSELF |
| I hang my head |
| Locked inside of my bedroom, I’ll be fine |
| Right now, I’m saving my breath |
| I’m sick of wasting my time |
| This for all the times that I bled |
| And all the pain that I felt |
| I’ll use the lies that I’m fed to fuckin' save myself |
| Scared to pick that lock that’s hiding my subconscious |
| Way too young to be knowing all of these toxins |
| Twelve years old, I was sippin' on concoctions |
| Tryna tell the world that I think I’m all out of options |
| Screaming out for help with the whole world watching |
| It was entertaining, it fueled their gossip |
| I was just a little kid when I flipped that faucet, went unconscious |
| Like fuck it I’ma found out who God is |
| No one ever found out about that day |
| So they kept on giving me back pains |
| They didn’t care if I was stuck in a bad place |
| It made my brain sicker than the Black Plague, now |
| I’m having panic attacks when I’m alone and I don’t sleep |
| Fingers down my throat between the meals I wouldn’t eat |
| When I hit rock bottom, and I wanted to retreat |
| I just crawled back up to my damn feet |
| I hang my head |
| Locked inside of my bedroom, I’ll be fine |
| Right now, I’m saving my breath |
| I’m sick of wasting my time |
| This for all the times that I bled |
| And all the pain that I felt |
| I’ll use the lies that I’m fed to fuckin' save myself |
| Bottled up inside, I never learned a way to grieve |
| Can’t blame myself, 'cause ever since I was a teen |
| Everyone I found too close to me would leave |
| I would hold on too long even when they’d cheat |
| Happened three times, but the fourth girl was a treat |
| She manipulated all my insecurities |
| I would pull her weight for weeks while we wouldn’t speak |
| Held up her world while she would kick me in the knees |
| I been thinking hard about that day |
| When I told her it was our last day together |
| She decided to take all of that pain |
| And try to overdose, memory is a bad lane |
| That I’ma never drive down, she don’t deserve it, that’s OD |
| Permanent imprints from all of the anxieties |
| Still burn my soul so bad it’s a third-degree |
| But I’m still not accepting defeat |
| I hang my head |
| Locked inside of my bedroom, I’ll be fine |
| Right now, I’m saving my breath |
| I’m sick of wasting my time |
| This for all the times that I bled |
| And all the pain that I felt |
| I’ll use the lies that I’m fed to fuckin' save myself |
| I won’t break |
| Break (I guess I’ll save myself) |
| I won’t break |
| Break (I guess I’ll save myself) |