Translation of the song lyrics Nemico di me stesso - Mr.Rain, Hopsin

Nemico di me stesso (original)

Ho imparato a farmi odiare per non farmi amare
Cercando di nascondere quello che sono
Imparerò a volare senza farmi male
Ma più vai in alto e più forte è l’impatto col suolo
Ci sono due persone opposte che vivono dentro me
Una cerca di uccidere ciò che provo
Allontanandomi da tutti, restando solo
Rendendomi più simile a quello che odio
Una rosa che cresce da sola ha più spine degli altri
Perché conta soltanto su di sé
Ma col vento si spezzerà prima delle altr
Perché da sola è più fragile
Guardami prendre il volo
Ho cambiato la mia vita e non quello che sono
Sono nemico di me stesso, ho perso di nuovo
Combatto con un mostro dentro, non contro di loro
Tutti hanno un cuore e due anime
Van sempre in guerra tra loro
Una ti rende più fragile
L’altra ti rende più solo
E adesso non so chi sono
Allo specchio c'è un uomo che non mi somiglia
E non so più perché
Anche se non vedo mai dov'è
Lui vive dentro di me
I’m looking into my reflection, was like depression
My eyes are restless
I’m kind of desperate for some, I don’t know
Love to head into my direction
Maybe things’ll get better for me if I confessed it
I’m probably addicted to the demons, I lie in bed with
And I’ll admit it describes embedded in my intestine
Past traumas, that’s why I struggle to find a best friend
And only solution in my mind is a violent death wish
So I’ll push it away, I’m sick of the days
I’m leaving the pain, I don’t want to
When you smile isn’t it tamed?
You bend and you change
Into a new nigga and it hunts you
Me and the anguish are anointed figures
Your boy’s a sinner, some days I think there’s no point to get up
I get a grip and get a fistful of some annoying blisters
All I can do is stop the blame and pointing inward
I’m working on it, shit
Tutti hanno un cuore e due anime
Van sempre in guerra tra loro
Una ti rende più fragile
L’altra ti rende più solo
E adesso non so chi sono
Allo specchio c'è un uomo che non mi somiglia
E non so più perché
Anche se non vedo mai dov'è
Lui vive dentro di me

(translation)

I learned to make myself hate so as not to make me love
Trying to hide who I am
I will learn to fly without getting hurt
But the higher you go, the stronger the impact with the ground
There are two opposite people living inside me
One tries to kill what I feel
By getting away from everyone, being alone
Making me more like what I hate
A rose that grows on its own has more thorns than others
Because it only counts on itself
But with the wind it will break before the others
Because by itself it is more fragile
Watch me take flight
I changed my life and not who I am
I am my own enemy, I have lost again
I fight with a monster inside, not against them
Everyone has one heart and two souls
They are always at war with each other
One makes you more fragile
The other makes you more alone
And now I don't know who I am
In the mirror there is a man who does not look like me
And I don't know why anymore
Even if I never see where it is
He lives inside of me
I'm looking into my reflection, was like depression
My eyes are restless
I'm kind of desperate for some, I don't know
Love to head into my direction
Maybe things’ll get better for me if I confessed it
I'm probably addicted to the demons, I lie in bed with
And I’ll admit it describes embedded in my intestine
Past traumas, that’s why I struggle to find a best friend
And only solution in my mind is a violent death wish
So I’ll push it away, I'm sick of the days
I'm leaving the pain, I don't want to
When you smile isn't it tamed?
You bend and you change
Into a new nigga and it hunts you
Me and the anguish are anointed figures
Your boy's a sinner, some days I think there's no point to get up
I get a grip and get a fistful of some annoying blisters
All I can do is stop the blame and pointing inward
I'm working on it, shit
Everyone has one heart and two souls
They are always at war with each other
One makes you more fragile
The other makes you more alone
And now I don't know who I am
In the mirror there is a man who does not look like me
And I don't know why anymore
Even if I never see where it is
He lives inside of me