| My mind is travelling to a distant past
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| Away from this wasteland so cold and vast
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| I think of the things that I never do
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| Like watching the moon and thinking of you
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| Now I will tell you what I have done all since I left I’ve been holding the gun
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| I’ve carried the memories of you my dear
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| But now I feel lost and surrounded by fear
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| You are my mom and you would know best what are the feeling that grow in my
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| chest
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| It feels like it’s bounded and made out of hate
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| What can I do but sit here and wait
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| I have been changed, I have grown and all I hope you forgive my incompetent
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| scrawl
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| My hands are not soft
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| They are hard as steel
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| So is my heart, but I can still feel
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| I had no choice, when I left you alone
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| It hurts even now, down to my bone
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| But I will come home to sing you a song
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| I hope you have faith, I hope you are strong
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| The memory of you, I left it at home
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| It feels like a sun that I carry alone
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| You are now gone inside my mind
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| You will see me, but I will be blind
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| The days have not been kind to me
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| Oh how miss the smell of the sea
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| All I now can breed through the air
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| Is blood, hate and a killing despair
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| Maybe I won’t return at all
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| This journey might be my final fall
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| I can’t remember the face of you
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| I thought I had it, I thought I knew
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| I want to release this final shot
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| My soul will fly from this senseless spot
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| This is my dream, I fear it will end
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| All my love to you I will send. |
| I hope you receive this note from me.
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| I want to escape, to live and be free
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| I regret if I told you a single lie
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| I’m ready to leave, I’m ready to die |