| Well, judging from my exuberant expertise
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| Hey!
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| I like that
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| Hey!
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| Yeah
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| Oh, fuck you
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| I’m like ten years in, feels like I’m just getting started
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| Spent the first like six or so just trying to run from my problems
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| I signed a deal as a rapper, left that deal as a man
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| Let them songs do all the talking, let y’all gossip instead
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| Them problems made me an artist, shit, they developed my brand
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| Said that we should just enjoy ourselves before I did
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| I had a chip on my shoulder, every beat was my dip
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| And after ten whole years, I almost packed up and quit
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| Got that comedy itch, I want to act in some flicks
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| I want to wake up with a woman, not wake up with a… huh
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| I want to follow my dreams, not get stuck in a line
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| 'Cause by the time I reach the front, I’ll know I’ve wasted my time
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| I’m finally making a living, but think I’m dying inside
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| Shit’s ironic, I was happier clocked in at my job
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| I’m not sure what I should do, just know that this isn’t it
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| Struggles of me being me, the hopeful pessimist
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| And still I seem to always find a way to kill a good thing
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| Like, look at all the shit that I done fucked up, girls that I done fucked up
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| Drinks that I done drunk up, drugs that got me locked up
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| I wonder all the time 'bout who I would be
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| If I ain’t ever got caught up in dumb shit, thrown into that drunk tank
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| Bought that fucking ticket to Miami just to escape
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| Fucked around and got my passport stolen in the first week
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| Wilding out on south-beach, rapping over phour beats
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| Smashing all them girls from Cuba, Honduras
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| Sleeping on them couches like a deadbeat, no worries
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| Keystone and shots of Sobieski, it varied
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| Wake up looking like I seen a ghost, Bill Murray
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| With that Young Sinatra playing, Overly Dedicated
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| Nothing but some Setbacks so I moved to Section.80
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| Man, I moved back to my hometown, just a bad kid in a good place
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| To a good kid in a mad city, no ass-kissing, no asterisks
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| No KD chips, LeBron James with no stadium
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| Bonneville with no radio, rocked every show in my radius
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| Ate twice a day call it radium, sad as hell, but still radiant
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| Opened up for like every artist on the fucking planet, no main event
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| And still can’t find me a single reason that explains why I ain’t famous yet
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| Good job, you played yourself, DJ Khaled
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| Snapchat on a Jet-ski PH balance
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| Whole lot of y’all basic, I’m acid the rapper
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| I’m Donald on a good day, I’m traffic in Atlanta on a bad one
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| Y’all ad-libs to my anthem, your best days my average
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| Y’all Artest to my Wallace, this rap shit is my palace
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| No challenge, no red flag, my last girl she waved that
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| I’m way past past dues, paid those in my past too
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| Many times to even recollect and now I just collect when I have to
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| Underpaid, disrespected, nowadays I’m my own Collective
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| President of my fan club, treat every record like a new election, I…
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| Still think about my Dad when I get sad
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| Think about how nothing good can last
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| Think about the future I’ve rejected, friends that I’ve neglected
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| And how my whip is running out of gas
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| I hear the engine clicking as I drive, grows louder all the time
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| I wonder if I should just let it crash
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| No passengers to be sat, no one to push a seat back
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| No one to make a playlist, no one to give me feedback
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| Wonder what it’s like losing sleep, pillow-talking over dreams
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| Wish for everlasting cold spots and clean Supima sheets
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| I wish for breezes on the beach, night drives and sunny skies
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| I wish that I was taller, for a smile, and perfect teeth
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| I wish I had someone to shop with, someone to cherish God with
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| I wish for simple things, I wish that I believed in God
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| I hope you get the greatest job, to brag about at weddings
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| I hope you find somebody, hope you have the perfect wedding
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| Know that I’ll never forget you, and that I’ll always miss you
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| And that I’m self-aware and I’m still working out my issues
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| Treat each record like a breakthrough, reflections like they’re see through
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| And never have no filler lines, no peek-a-boos or previews
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| You’ll always get the real me, no matter what, the real me
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| And when I contradict myself, just trust I’ll do the right thing |
| I’m confident in hindsight, but squint to see a scoreboard
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| Grateful this is my life, just doubt it’s what I’ll die for
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| I wish I had time for, people with no strings
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| Attached, but seems like everyone’s a puppet in this bitch
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| I see the film start to unravel, I’m tripping over dreams
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| But most of y’all don’t see 'em through, you leave before the credits
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| And I’m not too good at things, no not whatsoever
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| I just work way harder than the people that are better
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| Wrote a letter to a fan, while I was making dinner
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| Then went and made this beat and wrote the lyrics, then I spit it
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| Then recorded it and listened, mixed it, then submitted
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| I made the cover art and everything else that went with it
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| All the jobs that they distribute, and split amongst themselves
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| I studied and I practiced, now I do that shit myself
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| I know I could just ask for help, but then who would I be?
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| Another fucking artist that just sounds like other artists?
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| And the truth about my albums, you know, the ones I shelved?
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| Them shit’s was kind of hot, but they were made for someone else
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| So by the time it came to drop 'em, I couldn’t fucking do it
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| I promise that I tried, just wasn’t happy, and I knew it
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| But I want you all to know, that I was dying slow
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| I almost killed myself to speed things up, but then I chose
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| To write a song 'bout being happy, I cried when it was done
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| Because I knew I wasn’t, truth is, I was scared as fuck
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| But had to try and better me, I knew I couldn’t die
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| 'Cause way too many people were counting on me to survive
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| And there’s a we in front of should because it really takes an army
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| And it’s so fucking crazy, when I look up I’m surrounded
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| I know I won’t live forever, but y’all my youth fountain
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| And every time somebody says I saved 'em, it’s ironic
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| 'Cause it’s y’all that keep me going, every day’s a bonus
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| This music is a thank you, all these songs, you really wrote 'em
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| Life is nothing but some moments, some we’ll share together
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| And I just hope you know that when I’m gone, I really tried to be happy |