Lyrics Never Going Back - Brothers

Never Going Back

I can’t take this any longer
They say what kills you makes you stronger
Flicking through these photos
Reminiscing them days when we were younger
Man, things were so different
Had Mama always cooking in the kitchen
Single mother raising three boys
I swear I don’t know how you did it
But God as my witness, until I die
I made a promise, I’ma make it
For all them days when you picked me up from the station
Man, only God knows you were patient
I’ll never forget them nights when you used to cry
I always wanted to ask you why
Was it 'cause Dad left us with no goodbye?
Or was it the pain
Falling off of my little brother’s eyes?
Or was it the family
With all their bullshit and their lies?
Or was it my auntie?
Everything changed that day she died
She left two little beautiful girls behind
The only time I see is when I look in their eyes
It’s crazy, you were my best friend
The only one that kept the family together
Now everything is a mess, my life’s like a puzzle
The pieces will take me forever
To put 'em together, that’s why I don’t bother
But I don’t want to live with regret
When I see my mum stressed, it gets me depressed
I cannot enjoy my success
Swear I can’t do this no more
It tore me apart when they put a battery in my mother’s heart
Doctor said she wouldn’t make it
This the end of my verse
Wish I can go back to the start
But I know it will hurt
I know it will hurt
Look, Mama, I’m sorry
For all the pain that you’ve been through
I’ma buy you a house with that big view
'Cause I couldn’t have done this without you
Father, I’m sorry
You weren’t there for me when I needed you
I ain’t never gonna stop, no way
I’m never going back to them days
I grew up alone
That’s why I always did shit on my own
I never asked nobody for no favours
Always moved houses
So I never had a place to call home
Never going back to them days
Never going back to them days, no way
Look, Mama, I’m sorry
For all the pain that you’ve been through
I’ma buy you a house with that big view
'Cause I couldn’t have done this without you
Father, I’m sorry
You weren’t there for me when I needed you
I ain’t never gonna stop, no way
I’m never going back to them days
2018, January 24
Let me take you back to the moment
Where my life was almost cut short
I was driving, 'bout to turn right
I looked, there was no car in sight
All of a sudden
Bright lights when I opened my eyes
I’m sitting there praying
Will I ever get the chance to see my family again?
Was it even worth it?
All the drama between me and my ex
Was it worth blaming myself all of them years
When my dad walked out and left?
Fuck him, I never needed him
But who I am kidding?
Grew up feeling alone
That’s why I always did shit on my own
I never asked nobody for no favours
Always moved houses
So I never had a place to call home
Shit got worse when my grandfather died
Didn’t even get the chance to say bye
But I know deep down, he’s in a better place
So, Lord, tell me why
Rest in peace to my ones up there
Tell me why do the good die young
Bow to my knees, I’ma cite this prayer
But I know the devil tryna hold my tongue
I was taught by my mum
She said the fame don’t change you
It changes the people around you
She a OG like that, MVP like that
She only see the best in me like that
Fuck
As I take a couple more breaths
My body’s in shock, there’s pain on my chest
Knife in the back’s from the ones that left
When I’m laid in my coffin to rest
Just know I was blessed
Just know I was blessed
Look, Mama, I’m sorry
For all the pain that you’ve been through
I’ma buy you a house with that big view
'Cause I couldn’t have done this without you
Father, I’m sorry
You weren’t there for me when I needed you
I ain’t never gonna stop, no way
I’m never going back to them days
Sebz (Yeah?)
Remember back in the day
I used to watch you lock yourself in that room
Because of the shit they say
Izzy, remember what I told you
No such thing as a friend
Only friend is your pad and the pen
I’m the one you can always depend, I’m your brother
Fuck them all right to the end
Tell me why never loved us
Izzy, relax
Nah, bro, look how they all switched up
Circle got smaller the bigger we got
This took us ten years, they say it was luck
They say that we fake
They say it with hate
The type to take anyone’s food off their plate
You know what, you’re right, they think it’s a game
But this is our life, we don’t care about fame
Gotta stack up the cash then leave
No future for a kid in these streets
Little bro, have faith and always be grateful
Sebz, you were always there for me
And for that, my brother, I thank you
Don’t thank me
You taught me just as much as I taught you
But you could have died in the car that day
Then I swear I don’t know what I would do
'Cause I lost too many people I love
Lookin' around, it isn’t the same
Lord, forgive me, but this is the truth
So many times I just wanna give up
I feel like it’s never enough
I just wanna give up
I just wanna give up
Look, Mama, I’m sorry
For all the pain that you’ve been through
I’ma buy you a house with that big view
'Cause I couldn’t have done this without you
Father, I’m sorry
You weren’t there for me when I needed you
I ain’t never gonna stop, no way
I’m never going back to them days
I grew up alone
That’s why I always did shit on my own
I never asked nobody for no favours
Always moved houses
So I never had a place to call home
Never going back to them days
Never going back to them days, no way
Look, Mama, I’m sorry
For all the pain that you’ve been through
I’ma buy you a house with that big view
'Cause I couldn’t have done this without you
Father, I’m sorry
You weren’t there for me when I needed you
I ain’t never gonna stop, no way
I’m never going back to them days