Translation of the song lyrics Qora atirgul - Хамдам Собиров, Ziyoda

Qora atirgul (original)

Hayolim joyidamas aqldan ozdim
To'g'ri yo'l tanlamadim baxtimdan qochdim
Hiylayu fitnalarga yuragimdan joy berdim
Nahotki qo'limdagi omadimni boy berdim
Nimalar yo'qotim nimalarni topdim
Orzularim yo'lini birin ketin yopdim
Balki bu sinovmi yoki taqdir peshona
Meni ado qilmasaydi shu kichkina hona
Qaytadimi hayotimga men yo'qotgan bahorlar
Aytadimi suyukligim qulog'imga izhorlar
Kulsam endi meni yig'latmanglar
Yerda yursam bas yashashni menga o'rgatmanglar
To'rt devor orasidaman olib ket, olib ket
Qara men jar yoqasidaman olib ket, olib ket
Endi kimlar qafasidaman olib ket, olib ket, olib ket
Qani endi hammasini oq qog'zodan boshlasam
Bu holatda bo'lmasmidim to'g'ri qadam tashlasam
Kim aslida kimligini hozirgidek bilsaydim
Ko'zlariga qarab turib yolg'onlarin ko'rsaydim
Yaqin insonlarimni qadrimni yo'qotmasdim
Ikki dunyo xiyonatning botqog'iga botmasdim
Balki bu sinovmi yoki taqdir peshona
Meni ado qilmasaydi shu kichkina hona
Qaytadimi hayotimga men yo'qotgan bahorlar
Aytadimi suyukligim qulog'imga izhorlar
Kulsam endi meni yig'latmanglar
Yerda yursam bas yashashni menga o'rgatmanglar
To'rt devor orasidaman olib ket, olib ket
Qara men jar yoqasidaman olib ket, olib ket
Endi kimlar qafasidaman olib ket, olib ket, olib ket
Men bugun yana zulmatda yonaman
Ucholmayman shu qafasda qolaman
Azoblarim qanchadan qancha
Dardlarim anchadan ancha
Ey hayot qiynama buncha qiynaldim qancha

Qora atirgul (translation)

I went crazy out of nowhere
I didn’t choose the right path and ran away from happiness
I have given place in my heart to deceit and intrigue
Did I miss out on the luck in my hand
What I lost I found what I lost
I blocked the path of my dreams one by one
Maybe it's a test or fate forehead
If it doesn't work for me, it's a small room
Will the springs I lost come back to my life
My darling expresses it in my ear
If I laugh, don't make me cry anymore
Don't teach me to live if I walk on the ground
Take me between the four walls, take me away
Look I'm on the edge of the jar Take it, take it
Now who am I in the cage, take it, take it, take it
I wish I could start all over with white paper
I wouldn't be in this situation if I took the right step
If only I knew who I really am as I do now
If only I could see the lies in his eyes
I did not lose the value of my loved ones
Two worlds I would not have sunk into the swamp of betrayal
Maybe it's a test or fate forehead
If it doesn't work for me, it's a small room
Will the springs I lost come back to my life
My darling expresses it in my ear
If I laugh, don't make me cry anymore
Don't teach me to live if I walk on the ground
Take me between the four walls, take me away
Look I'm on the edge of the jar Take it, take it
Now who am I in the cage, take it, take it, take it
I am burning in the dark again today
I can't fly, I'll stay in this cage
How much my pain is
My pain is much greater
O life, how much I have suffered so much