| I’m mad and I’m insane, I worry I couldn’t change from the moment I remember
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| the memories that I once knew
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| There’s something inside of me that I’ll never know
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| While other’s are fine with 9 to 5's, while flippin' burgers and fries I’m
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| trying to keep alive the dreams when I was 5 to strive to be forever known
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| And I ain’t talkin' money and the fame, I know that it’s all the same getting
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| caught up in the game, I never thought it would be easy I don’t wanna complain
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| I know life is more than music, but to me it’s the same
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| And now it’s all that I have, no one left to remind me the future is brighter
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| than what I’m leaving behind me
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| Like I’m living so blindly, but now that I see I got nobody else to blame but me
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| Why am I so critical? |
| (critical)
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| Wondering how that it got so far, tearing my down right from the start
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| When will I learn that it’s not my fault?
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| Why am I so critical? |
| (critical)
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| I’ve never been so afraid of myself, and I’m too proud to ask for help
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| Guess I gotta work with the cards I’m dealt
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| Why am I so critical?
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| Why do I do this to myself?
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| Can’t begin to imagine what it’s doing to my health
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| When I sit in this room stressing for hours on this audio
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| Picking apart to start loosing myself
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| And what’s funny is when you hear it if you listen it seems all the doubt and
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| insecurity is missing from me
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| It’s like when I’m behind this mic it’s a different me
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| Or I guess I’m just projecting what I wish I could be
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| I’m like the kid at 14 who doesn’t think he can make the team
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| Even though his friends say he’s set up for the major leagues
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| The kid who let somebody tinker with his crazy dream, who never believed that
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| being himself is the way to be
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| But if you took it away I bet I wouldn’t be the same over confident,
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| that put me in the cage
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| So I should probably acknowledge it, and capture it’s wealth run with and stop
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| asking myself
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| Why am I so critical? |
| (critical)
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| Wondering how that it got so far, tearing my down right from the start
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| When will I learn that it’s not my fault?
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| Why am I so critical? |
| (critical)
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| I’ve never been so afraid of myself, and I’m too proud to ask for help
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| Guess I gotta work with the cards I’m dealt
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| Why am I so critical?
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| I’ve never been concerned with the pressure of the limelight
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| I’ve only been about only getting my own mind right
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| I’m broken record player in from a cracked mirror in the basement of the house
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| that I burnt down (down)
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| I’ve been the ball and the chain dragging from the shackle on the ankle of my
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| brain while my self-sabotaging ass laughs in the background let me tell you all
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| what I’ve learned now
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| Worst than being a fraud is being real with the fucked up self image of your
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| own skill
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| When good is never good, God I need pill my obsession is the definition of over
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| kill, and
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| When I get my confidence shakin', I turn it up a notch and get to over
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| compensatin'
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| Am I honest when I tell you that I have nothing to hide or am I trying to fix
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| something inside?
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| Why am I so critical (critical)
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| Wondering how that it got so far, tearing my down right from the start
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| When will I learn that it’s not my fault?
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| Why am I so critical (critical)
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| I’ve never been so afraid of myself, and I’m too proud to ask for help
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| Guess I gotta work with the cards I’m dealt
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| Why am I so critical? |
| (critical)
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| Wondering how that it got so far, tearing my down right from the start
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| When will I learn that it’s not my fault?
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| Why am I so critical? |
| (critical)
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| I’ve never been so afraid of myself, and I’m too proud to ask for help
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| Guess I gotta work with the cards I’m dealt
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| Why am I so critical? |
| (critical)
|
| Wondering how that it got so far, tearing my down right from the start
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| When will I learn that it’s not my fault?
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| Why am I so critical? |
| (critical)
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| I’ve never been so afraid of myself, and I’m too proud to ask for help
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| Guess I gotta work with the cards I’m dealt
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| Why am I so critical? |