| And maybe you’re the Circle Line girl
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| trying so hard not to let on you know
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| I’m looking at the way your toes poke out through your sandals
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| at funny angles to your feet
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| and how you know it turns me on
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| Or maybe you’re the Spanish girl
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| playing with your hair as you wait for your friend
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| in that wild octagon of mirrors the Tate calls a coffee shop
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| And I can smell that hair from here
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| and I can see from eight different angles
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| the way your nipples look through that thin black cotton top
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| reflected to infinity
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| And oh God, it’s places like that and purple-tipped prose like this
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| that’s going to hemorrhage me, girl
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| Ooo, it’s true:
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| Girl, I’m only doing it to be closer to you
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| Or maybe you’re the bay window girl
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| in Wandsworth Town, in ripped jeans and open Venetians
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| painting the difficult corner of an empty room
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| white under a naked bulb
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| leaning across the bar at the top of your stepladder
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| at the precise moment I’m passing on the steep street
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| at the bottom of your garden in the gathering night
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| voyeur’s delight
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| Ooo, it’s true:
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| Girl, I’m only doing it to be closer to you
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| Or maybe you’re the foundation painter
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| at the Central School, looking so fine-boned
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| I could carry you home in your portfolio case
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| laced up gently so you won’t cry out on the bus
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| and give the game away
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| tied up lightly, because girl
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| how could I knowingly injure someone
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| with your perfect lips and wrists, your exquisite structure
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| Oh, little acrylic painter, I can kiss eggshells, I can be ginger
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| all the critics say I’m such a sensitive singer
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| Ooo, it’s true:
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| Girl, I’m only doing it to be closer to you
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| And maybe you’re listening to my voice now
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| on your Walkman or your bedsit Dansette
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| letting my songs slip into you on this quiet night
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| in with your pads of doodles and your fingers full of pencils
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| and low tar cigarettes
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| And the music’s light and pleasant so you hardly notice
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| what I’m singing about in «Paper Wraps Rock»
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| And «Murderers, the Hope of Women,»
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| my voice is just a sound that pleases you
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| that enters you and leaves you just the same
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| and that’s how I want it to stay, because, you know
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| Ooo, it’s true:
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| Girl, I’m only doing it to be closer to you
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| But some of those were bitter records
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| records which accuse women, girls like you
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| of using your attractiveness wantonly and willfully
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| to trap and to paralyze men
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| who wanted you and could never have you
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| men who sometimes felt the perverse urge
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| to trash the women they desired the most
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| men who imagined they despised all those immaculate visions
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| what adolescent crap, what kind of idiot would sing that?
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| Oh, not me because, you know
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| Ooo, it’s true:
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| Girl, I’m only doing it to be closer to you
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| But sometimes I think that every man who writes
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| every man who paints or composes, deep soul or symphonies
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| it makes no difference, all those men are only making do with substitutes:
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| Solomon, Confucius, Franz Kafka
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| they’d never have done it if they’d been as beautiful as you
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| sitting cross-legged there with gentle music
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| lapping around a promise, there where your thighs meet
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| of fertility a million artists couldn’t compete with
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| Ooo, it’s true:
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| Girl, I’m only doing it to be closer to you
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| And all the time I see you there
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| in the eye of my mind, and all that cheap macho stuff
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| about de Sade and misogyny vanishes into thin air
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| and I’m moved to tears just like any other sucker
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| who’s been bruised by all the things that weren’t to be
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| and yet who’s ready to fall down on his knees
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| in front of a woman, and say:
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| «Whatever you may do, whatever you may be to me
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| despite the times we disagree, your ridiculous ambitions
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| your conventional inhibitions
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| I want you to know that I respect you
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| I accept you and I want you to accept me
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| I want to kiss you, kiss your stockinged knee
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| accept the uniquely soft flesh
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| on the undersides of your hips,»
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| Ooo, it’s true:
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| Girl, I’m only doing it to be closer to you
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| And when I’ve won you
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| when I’ve fallen down in front of you, and said:
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| «Damn Franz Kafka, damn the Thin White Duke
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| (damn the Thin White Duke)
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| it’s you and you alone I’m doing this for,»
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| When I’m through with heroes and pastiche
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| (throwing darts in lovers' eyes)
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| when you’ve let me make love to you
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| the slowest, deepest way that I know how
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| (when you do that for me, baby)
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| and it feels so good (bear with me)
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| that’s when I’ll think of Paul Klee’s epitaph:
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| «Here lies the painter Paul Klee
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| somewhat closer than usual to the heart of creation
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| but far from close enough,»
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| And girl, here I lie
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| far from close enough to you… |