| I wanna tell you a story — about a story. |
| And it’s about the time I discovered
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| that most adults have no idea what they’re talking about. |
| It was the middle of
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| the summer, when I was 12. And I was the kind of kid who was always showing off.
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| I have seven brothers and sisters, and I was always getting lost in the crowd.
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| And so, I would do practically anything for attention
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| So, one day I was at the swimming pool, and I decided to do a flip from the
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| high board. |
| The kind of dive when you’re temporarily, magically,
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| suspended mid-air. |
| And everyone around the pool goes «Wow! |
| That’s incredible.
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| That’s amazing!»
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| Now, I’d never done a flip before. |
| But I thought: «How hard could it be?
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| You just somersault and straighten out right before you hit the water.
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| «So I did. |
| But I missed the pool. |
| And I landed on the concrete edge.
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| And broke my back
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| I spent the next few weeks in traction, in the Children’s Ward at the hospital.
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| And for quite a while I couldn’t move or talk. |
| I was just sort of… Floating.
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| I was in the same trauma unit with the kids who’d been burned. |
| And they were
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| hanging in these rotating slings, sort of like rotisseries or spits.
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| Machines that would turn you around and around. |
| So the burns could be bathed
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| in these cool liquids
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| Then one day, one of the doctors came to see me, and he told me that I wouldn’t
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| be able to walk again. |
| And I remember thinking: «This guy is crazy.
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| I mean, is he even a doctor? |
| Who knows?» |
| Of course I was going to walk.
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| I just had to concentrate. |
| Keep trying to make contact with my feet,
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| to convince them — will them — to move
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| The worst thing about this was the volunteers, who came every afternoon to read
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| to me. |
| And they’d lean over the bed, and they’d say: «Hello Laurie.
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| «Really enunciating each word, as if I’d also gone deaf. |
| And they’d open the
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| book. |
| «So, where were we? |
| Oh yes… The gray rabbit was hopping down the road,
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| and guess where he went? |
| Well, nobody knows. |
| The farmer doesn’t know…
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| The farmer’s wife doesn’t know…» Nobody knew where the rabbit had gone — but
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| just about everybody seemed to care
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| Now, before this happened, I’d been reading books like A Tale of Two Cities and
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| Crime and Punishment. |
| So the gray rabbit stories were kind of a slow torture…
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| Anyway, eventually I did get on my feet. |
| And for two years I wore a huge metal
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| brace. |
| And I got very obsessed with John F. Kennedy. |
| Because he had back
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| problems too. |
| And he was the President
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| Much later in my life, when someone would ask what my childhood was like,
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| sometimes I would tell them this story about the hospital. |
| And it was a short
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| way of telling them certain things about myself. |
| How I’d learned not to trust
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| certain people. |
| And how horrible it was to listen to long pointless stories.
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| Like the one about the gray rabbit
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| But there was always something weird about telling this story, that made me
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| very uneasy. |
| Like something was missing. |
| Then one day, when I was in the middle
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| of telling it, I was describing the little rotisseries that the kids were
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| hanging in. And suddenly, it was like I was back in the hospital.
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| Just exactly the way it had been. |
| And I remembered the missing part
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| It was the way the ward sounded at night. |
| It was the sounds of all the children
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| crying and screaming. |
| It was the sounds that children make when they’re dying
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| And then I remembered the rest of it. |
| The heavy smell of medicine.
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| The smell of burnt skin. |
| How afraid I was. |
| And the way some of the beds would
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| be empty in the morning. |
| And the nurses would never talk about what had
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| happened to these kids. |
| They’d just go on making the beds and cleaning up
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| around the ward
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| And so the thing about this story — was that actually I’d only told the part
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| about myself. |
| And I’d forgotten the rest of it. |
| I’d cleaned it up,
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| just the way the nurses had. |
| And that’s what I think is the creepiest thing
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| about stories. |
| You try to get to the point you’re making — usually about
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| yourself or something you learned. |
| And you get your story, and you hold on to
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| it. |
| And every time you tell it, you forget it more |