Song information On this page you can find the lyrics of the song Dualistic Nihilist, artist -
Date of issue: 01.06.2017
Song language: English
Dualistic Nihilist |
I’ve seen the end of it all |
I was on my kitchen floor |
With a knife held to my throat |
Battles raging inside |
The darkest waves crushing me slow |
The soul replaced by the season’s change taking control |
Forcing me down a road that I’ve never known |
So completely alone |
The shadow grows and tears the insides out |
I have a history of burning myself out |
Nightmares set to the beat of the years counting down |
I lost myself in my own skin |
With no feet on the ground I dove right into |
A world that did not exist |
Nobody saw this coming at first |
As the year crept by I rose from the earth |
No understanding of what I felt |
A fever rising but I couldn’t tell what was happening to me |
«You don’t seem yourself, I don’t think that you’re ok.» |
Just follow me down a twisting, turning maze of thoughts |
Exploding from a mind that just won’t stop |
It’s all good that everything’s changed |
It seems insane, they’ll understand someday |
I know I’m right |
I’m pulling the anchor down |
And it’s getting darker now |
I’m pulling the anchor down |
Too low and now we all suffer |
I’m pulling the anchor down |
And you’re fighting harder now |
But I’m pulling the anchor down |
Sink with me, tonight I’m skipping town |
By 10 O' Clock I’m gone |
Into the night, southbound |
I don’t belong here anymore |
This all just feels so wrong |
But at 90 miles an hour I felt strong |
Heading towards the worst that I’d become |
Dualistic annihilation, destroyer of foundation |
A blackened force headed towards a devastation |
Polarize the halves, a total separation |
Slip through the cracks into false revelations |
Electric currents control the path |
Los Angeles highways confuse the map |
It was laid out with perfection |
But the plan’s rotten with infection |
I was sure of where I was going |
Until the lights started dimming |
Alone in my car, the logic starts skipping |
Exits the same in every direction |
I don’t know where this high is heading |
But I know I’m scared to end it |
A series of events and new reality exists |
Life turned inward, unpredictable shifts |
Alone in the condition of flawed perspective |
A disaster too complex, a virus to dissect |
Too late to resurrect the spirit that left |
The power of the heart navigates until the end |
Sunset self-destruction with my trust on guard |
Roam the streets alone in the eye of the storm |
Enter the home where personalities split |
Confusion persists and identities twist |
The wires were crossed in impossible knots |
And all was lost |
Deny it all. |
Trust your heart when it’s raw |
Follow the moon. |
Listen to your father’s call |
He existed in the sky, for that moment in time |
Watching me pace the halls in a fury of fire |
Returning home to no relief |
Transformed unrecognizably |
The weapons are drawn for the ones in the trees |
For a midnight walk with someone following |
Awaken alone, dread soaking the sheets |
Actions cause reactions, I don’t want to be me |
To think of what I’ve lost is to look to the cause |
The center of destruction, I’m locked in it’s jaws |
Look to the side where no one resides |
A hollow reflection of the passing of time |
You did this to yourself, blame no one else |
Heart beating you down, no one could help |
Ingest the sedation |
Avoid isolation |
Get outside and adjust your vision |
Confront the weight of your decisions |
Run from the fear of a nightmare made real |
From a dream that ends in swift, cold steel |
You and I have climbed |
A million miles, watched everything die |
And I’ve been waiting all my life |
For something to survive |
Now, every day: «Did you eat?» |
«Did you sleep?» |
Allowing you to hate me shows my |
Love unconditionally |
Refusing to hate you |
Who are you and what have you done with my friend? |
I’m afraid I’ve almost accepted |
Nothing will ever be the same again |
I feel violated, but is that misguided? |
If I could tell you, one year ago today |
That someday I would need you |
Just as much as you needed me |
To let me know I’m not alone |
To not give up on me |
Or let me give up on everyone |
Save for save — |
I’m gonna make sure you’re ok |
Save for save |
This rescue goes both ways |
When the sky looks like the end of days |
And when this is long behind us |
What are we going to tell ourselves? |
Recalling those days from Hell |
Climbing mountains by myself |
Pouring frantic tears and sweat |
Turning strangers into friends |
When I’m calling them for help |
To protect you from yourself |
Everyone else trying to live |
Well, good for them — We are different |
You and I are just trying to stay alive |
But hours creep by one day at a time… |
The panic of collapse, the dread of existence |
Floods through the rivers of the nervous system |
The pain saturates the depths of the mind |
The outcome of war, a failure of design |
Drowning in darkness |
In a single room, confined |
If there’s nothing beyond this |
There’s an excess of time |
Take a breath, but don’t sit back and reflect |
Soldier down the road, try not to look back |
Surrender to the horror of the past |
Don’t dwell on when you chose the wrong path |
But this is now, the present takes over |
The wrath of regret weighs heavy on shoulders |
Crawl through each moment to the end of every night |
Stay in constant motion to keep the head right |
But everything’s wrong, I’m not who I once was |
Something’s been stolen, I can’t see the light |
A fire in the eyes no longer burns bright |
I’m prey for the animal that controls the light |
Support systems can’t heal the condition |
The expanding void of death’s incision |
As days pass by, I fall further inside |
Engage the impending end of this life |
Spiral inwards, feel the burn of my internal eyes |
On a path derailed with no end in sight |