| Six cups of NeoCitran and I feel no pain
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| Sitting on the back porch outside in the cold rain
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| Chasing the cocaine walk the streets with no name
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| Look my nose change color like Rudolph I’m no saint
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| No pain no gain, told you I’m no angel
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| No rainbows or halos just lightning inhale boy
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| How could I fail boy just tap me up another rail boy
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| We don’t ever do white with my shades on
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| When the sun is too bright I got devious plans to introduce tonight
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| So good at being bad I could never do right
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| When I was younger I had to go on special meds
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| In highschool the teachers put me in special ed
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| And kids made fun of me and my temper went bad
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| Once smashed a kids skull until his head bled
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| All over the dez they put me under arrest
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| But the charges couldn’t be pressed too young I guess
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| Doctor said I was depressed so more meds were suggested
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| Never in my life have I ever been accepted
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| Not even now you would have thought I had a greater life
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| Lots of friends, popularity, a smile on my face
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| But I’m still ducking the hate I’ll cover in scrapes
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| Still trudging through the mud fucking stuck in this place
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| I always knew I was a little bit off, a little bit lost
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| But always knew I could do whatever I wanted
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| I always knew I was just a little bit haunted
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| On the playground I was haunted, anxiety problems
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| And the kids call me more names and cause me more pain
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| And every year that went by became more strange
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| Started braking into houses, wasn’t playing board games
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| And all of a sudden one day the door rang
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| It was one of the kids I ran with
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| Then he had a gun he pointed at my mom and said
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| 'this is for your son, if he tells the cops what happened then he’s gonna get
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| what’s comin'
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| My mom was so scared she was sick to her stomach
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| Causing so much grief at all night I would spend
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| Those kids were just using me they weren’t really my friends
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| I thought I was being cool, gangster like them
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| Guess I didn’t know who I was I was trying to pretend |