Lyrics of Kajakas - Arop

Kajakas (original)

Teadsin ärgates, et midagi on viltu, sest
Tühi tunne minu südames on pilkudes
Üksi nagu vesi, kraanikaussi tilkudes
Mänguelevant ja padi minu pihkudes
Ma ei mõista miks nad kaasa mulle tunnevad
Männimetsa kirjakivid kaovad lumme nad…
Ja selle uuele ma kunagi ei meeldind!
Kui meid oli mitu uskusin, et mitte keegi
Ei vaja mind.
Tulin koju alles peale koitu
Arvasin, et Sul nii kergem kolmelegi leida toitu
Sind ei hoitud, nii nagu naist peaks —
Nad ei elanud kui mehed, ainult laisk teaks!
Su isa lihtsalt tõstis meid tänavale
Tal oli raha vaja tean, oli hädavale
Peale isa surma arvasin, et olen peremees
A Papa polnud Suur kuigi süda tema kere sees oli!
Näe ema, ma lähen ema!
Sinu rüselus ja valu, pojast tähe teevad!
Sa hoiatasid ja ma tean, et Nad lähenevad!
Siin pole ühtki sellist pead, kes mul pähe teevad!
Pisarad on kuivad, maskid on tuimad aga
Nagu kajakas on meretuules vaba.
A nad
Valavad õli tulle, kuid ma mõtlen Sulle
Ja ma tean, et pole valu, mis nad teeks mulle…
Magasime viiekesi põrandal
Ainus turvaline tunne ema õla all
Mu kangelane on nüüd väikelinna võla all
Vajan plaani, kuidas päästa pere sellest põlast!
Jätsin jõuka akna lahti, et öösiti seal ennast pesta —
Üksi tühjas kaarhallis, soovin
Et see hetk võiks kesta kauem…
Mu allakäik võiks olla veidi laugem
Kuid ema lubas, mulle, et mu tuul ei ole kaugel
Ja ma usun!
Näe ema, ma lähen ema!
Sinu rüselus ja valu, pojast tähe teevad!
Sa hoiatasid ja ma tean, et Nad lähenevad!
Siin pole ühtki sellist pead, kes mul pähe teevad!
Pisarad on kuivad, maskid on tuimad aga
Nagu kajakas on meretuules vaba.
A nad
Valavad õli tulle, kuid ma mõtlen Sulle
Ja ma tean, et pole valu, mis nad teeks mulle…
Näe ema, ma lähen ema!
Sinu rüselus ja valu, pojast tähe teevad!
Sa hoiatasid ja ma tean, et Nad lähenevad!
Siin pole ühtki sellist pead, kes mul pähe teevad!
Pisarad on kuivad, maskid on tuimad aga
Nagu kajakas on meretuules vaba.
A nad
Valavad õli tulle, kuid ma mõtlen Sulle
Ja ma tean, et pole valu, mis nad teeks mulle…
Näe ema, ma lähen ema!
Sinu rüselus ja valu, pojast tähe teevad!
Sa hoiatasid ja ma tean, et Nad lähenevad!
Siin pole ühtki sellist pead, kes mul pähe teevad!
Pisarad on kuivad, maskid on tuimad aga
Nagu kajakas on meretuules vaba.
A nad
Valavad õli tulle, kuid ma mõtlen Sulle
Ja ma tean, et pole valu, mis nad teeks mulle…

(translation)

I knew something was wrong when I woke up because
The empty feeling in my heart is in my eyes
Alone like water, dripping into the sink
A toy elephant and a pillow in my hands
I don't understand why they sympathize with me
The writing stones of the pine forest disappear in the snow, they...
And I never liked the new one!
When there were several of us, I believed that no one
Don't need me.
I didn't come home until after dawn
I thought it would be easier for you to find food for the three of you
You were not kept as a woman should be—
They didn't live like men, only a lazy person would know!
Your father just picked us up on the street
He needed money, I know, he was desperate
After my father died, I thought I was the master
A Papa was not Big even though his heart was inside his body!
Look mom, I'm going mom!
Your struggle and pain make a star out of your son!
You warned and I know They are coming!
There are no such heads here that make my head!
Tears are dry, but masks are dull
Like a seagull is free in the sea breeze.
And they
They add fuel to the fire, but I'm thinking of you
And I know there's no pain they'll do to me...
The five of us slept on the floor
The only safe feeling under my mother's shoulder
My hero is now in small town debt
I need a plan to save my family from this misery!
I left the rich window open to wash myself there at night —
Alone in an empty arcade, I wish
That this moment could last longer…
My descent could be a little smoother
But mother promised me that my wind was not far away
And I believe!
Look mom, I'm going mom!
Your struggle and pain make a star out of your son!
You warned and I know They are coming!
There are no such heads here that make my head!
Tears are dry, but masks are dull
Like a seagull is free in the sea breeze.
And they
They add fuel to the fire, but I'm thinking of you
And I know there's no pain they'll do to me...
Look mom, I'm going mom!
Your struggle and pain make a star out of your son!
You warned and I know They are coming!
There are no such heads here that make my head!
Tears are dry, but masks are dull
Like a seagull is free in the sea breeze.
And they
They add fuel to the fire, but I'm thinking of you
And I know there's no pain they'll do to me...
Look mom, I'm going mom!
Your struggle and pain make a star out of your son!
You warned and I know They are coming!
There are no such heads here that make my head!
Tears are dry, but masks are dull
Like a seagull is free in the sea breeze.
And they
They add fuel to the fire, but I'm thinking of you
And I know there's no pain they'll do to me...