| I wish that I was happy but I haven’t been
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| I struggle with the realization that I just cannot quit
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| Like am I really a person? |
| Or just a product of this rappin' shit
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| I ask myself like, «When the fuck I ask for this?»
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| It’s been a dream that I’ve had since I was young to be a
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| Part of the scene, but all this damage that it’s done
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| Makes me question if it’s worth it, I’ve been searching for the answers
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| With these demons on my back, I’m still determined that they’ll catch up
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| But who am I to really complain?
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| Just got a mansion with my girl outside the city, I’m saying
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| Sometimes to see all the rewards, you gotta live through the pain
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| Then I get fed up with routine and all I think of is change
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| Which is ironic, 'cause I wonder why it isn’t the same
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| It’s hard for me to tell the difference every different day, yeah
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| Nobody warned me 'bout this part
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| But I know my real fans’ll know my story from the start
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| It’s Merk
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| I’m just being honest with myself 'cause I got here by myself
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| I’ma keep on doing me
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| I just drank this bottle to myself, now I’m talkin' to myself
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| Lately I’ve been losin' sleep
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| I’m just being honest with myself 'cause I got here by myself
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| I’ma keep on doing me
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| I just drank this bottle to myself, now I’m talkin' to myself
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| Lately I’ve been losin' sleep
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| Yeah
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| I’m taking shots like I’m Dale Ahoy of this paranoia
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| Got me spillin' this forty over my pair of Jordan’s
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| So stay the fuck out of my bubble, it’s my territory
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| I’m saying sorry to myself and never staying loyal
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| I mask it off due to depression, I’m still standing tall
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| I cannon-balled into the deep end with all these rappin' sharks
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| I ain’t gon' frown like I had it hard, it ain’t that at all
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| But I had to stop smoking so much weed so I see past the fog
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| Be careful what you wish for, 'cause back when we was piss poor
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| I didn’t have to give, now when I give, they try to get more
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| It’s so confusing, I know they use me, it’s blatant now
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| I got so many snakes around my ankles that it weighs me down
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| I promised both my parents and my girl that I would make 'em proud
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| 'Cause they’re the only ones who never cared about my bank account
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| Never cared about my bank account
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| Let’s go
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| I’m just being honest with myself 'cause I got here by myself
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| I’ma keep on doing me
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| I just drank this bottle to myself, now I’m talkin' to myself
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| Lately I’ve been losin' sleep
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| I’m just being honest with myself 'cause I got here by myself
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| I’ma keep on doing me
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| I just drank this bottle to myself, now I’m talkin' to myself
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| Lately I’ve been losin' sleep |
Song information On this page you can read the lyrics of the song Losin' Sleep , by - Merkules. Song from the album Special Occasion, in the genre Иностранный рэп и хип-хоп