| I didnt wanna fucking do this song, for real
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| But I wouldnt be real if I didnt
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| I be sittin by myself and thinkin, mamma what have I become
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| All I wanted was a family, but when I look I be the only one
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| Losing everything but money, everybody left and I dont even get to see my young
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| Only happiness I get is in the studio or when I get to do another run
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| On the road, doin shows, get the woes, when it slows
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| gettin cold, getting old, but the flows, gettin sold
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| I’ve been doin this a minute but I think I wanna end it cause
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| I’m on a higher level when I go But the music I be doin it, be losin, make it hard for me to grow
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| All I wanted is a family portrait, see my babys on a ranch with horses
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| But I was fucking devil bitches in corsets. |
| I was livin really good but
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| I torched it
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| I’m sorry ms jackson, I’m speakin for real and I never meant to make
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| your daughter cry
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| But I guess I’m a failure with women and I’m lost and I feel like I ought to die
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| Feel like I’m rotting away, my life is just off in the grey
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| How much does it cost I will pay, to lay, and be off in a coffin today
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| I mean off in ashes, this life ain’t after a classes, If I get blasted
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| This is Suicide Letters all over again, I thought that I passed it But I guess that I didnt, cause this one is written and there is no mending
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| When I’m broke I’m a joke, when I croke I just hope I wont be descending
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| But this ain’t a joke, I want you to know that Tech ninna is never pretending
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| Alone in my bed, a gun to my head, asking WHERE IS MY HAPPY ENDING? |
| Ya Tell me how it ends?
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| What about me? |
| Where is my happy ending?
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| What about me? |
| Is this a life worth living?
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| You know how it begins, but how does it end for me?
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| Will I ever win, or does he have it in for me?
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| Will this stop before I stop breathing?
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| Is their lighty, in this dark I’m seein?
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| Chea, I put my life in this music, nina is inside out
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| I set my heart out for people, they know what the inside bout
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| Will they keep feelin ninna forever, this I doubt
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| Can never cry for help, if you listenin this my SHOUT
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| I’m searching for the passage way to happiness
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| But i’m wordly So I have to lay in nastiness
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| Yes, this is Strange year, worldwide fames near, but the games queer
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| Sometime I feel like I’m rudolph, the reindeer
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| But instead of a red nose, I stay in my red clothes
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| And the music they said blows, is on top and the cred grows
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| Can you ressurect a mother fucker that feel like he pose as a dead soul
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| Deteriorate to an inferior state almost equal to bread mold
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| Now as my head goes, wish I could shed those
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| Because all the time the ninna was shorted, what I bled froze
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| So now that I’m cold blooded, and hella sick is what the med shows
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| The tread slows, and dont even think you reviving a dead rose. |
| Chea
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| I’m on the verge of insanity, but I’m competant
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| I’m breakin so I pick this one to vent
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| The reason I look away when you talk to me my brain is producin evilness
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| I’m drownin in 151 and rumble ments. |
| Thats how I feel
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| I sit in the mirror with this gun and practice how to kill
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| But I know damn well that the people like me really wanna know how to chill
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| This life is about a check, about a number about a bill
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| Think about all the love I lost cause my quest is about a mill
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| I feel like your stupid, dont talk to me I'm crackin up And I dont mean laughter I'm full of bitterness and its backing up And I live with angles, but lately demons been shakin up Tug of war with my spirit, you |
| see the blood I'm hacking up?
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| I love my kids and my fans inside I sob harder
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| Cause you pay the price for my life and its right like Bob Barker
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| And I wont pretend its ok I’m no facade starter
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| So I guess my only happy ending is in a massage parlor
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| Chea |