Lyrics I Should Die Today - Soul Khan

I Should Die Today

With everything I need in me girl
I’m saying, everything here
Was once such sweet sweet love
It was a summer unlike any other, loving was hot and heavy
Plus she had crazy legs, so we was rocking steady
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Should have known better, soul
Homie, you ain’t gotta tell me
Daydreaming in this meadow of steel
I was a couple of levels above head over heels
Physique that could weaken a celibate monk
Sweetheart demeanor was a delicate front
We were both especially young
So anything that I expected was ahead of the gun
But one night, she wasn’t checking her phone
I should have left it alone, but I knew she had that nose that tended to run
I was stressing and panicking, had abandonment issues
I was texting and calling, hollering like damn it, I miss you
She said she’s deading it, I said you know the past that i’ve been through
But she ain’t even wanna talk about it, so all I thought about it was
With everything I need in me girl
I’m saying, everything here
Was once such sweet sweet love
Now here’s the part of it I never really brought up before
Cause I ain’t wanna trouble my sister and mom anymore
But since the beat is still rolling and I gotta record
Let’s address the messes I made soon as I walked out the door
For starters, I was drunk daily
Stuck in a rut a paleontologist couldn’t dig me out of to unveil me
Soul was the titanic, no boat or a life jacket
Another week of this and my blood would become bailey’s
Like what the hell’s occurring?
Waking up in union square smelling like somebody else’s urine
Clothes moldy like I never knew they sell detergent
Overdramatic acting like I was in hell and burning
Or sometimes sitting on the train platform, letting my legs dangle
Thinking maybe I should jump down, getting my flesh mangled
Luckily hesitated and stopped my decline
And reconnected with some friends who told me I would be fine, I told ‘em
With everything I need in me girl
I’m saying, everything here
Was once such sweet sweet love