| I was just a kid from a small town west of Pennsylvania
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| '88 moved down to GA, overwhelmed by the change
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| I got treated like stranger 'cause I didn’t fit in
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| Had a mullet, getting made fun of by the other kids
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| My brother wasn’t in the same school to protect me
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| 6th grade, every day they would jump me in the gym
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| Finally got a couple friends
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| I was in and out of phases, into heavy metal for a stint
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| Then I started singing Boyz II Men
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| Playing Poison Clan
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| Really I just wanna be like them
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| So I went and brought a gun
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| In the school to be cool
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| Wasn’t real but it looked like one
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| It was chrome but this kid Trovon
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| Took it from me, making dudes take they shoes off
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| When he got caught better say it ain’t mine
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| He said he wouldn’t tell
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| I was in the office when they rung the bell
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| I had to go to panel and probably get expelled
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| I knew I had to answer to my father I was scared
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| He was known for raising hell
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| Hit me with an open hand or he whipped me with a belt but today was something
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| else
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| Quiet on the ride home when we got into the house
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| I got swung into the shelf
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| Getting swung on, I was 12 tryna
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| Hide my face
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| Ditching uppercuts from my dad’s punches making
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| My nose bleed
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| With my sister and her neighbor friend watching, momma
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| Cry, but she
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| Knew it was one of many ass whoopings coming
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| I received
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| Can’t hit the back button
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| There’s a pain way down
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| That’s been trapped inside
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| Let the pain drain out
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| Left the past behind
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| But sometimes my mind
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| Press rewind
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| '95 was the best year of my life that’s without a question
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| My brother was a senior and I was just a freshman
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| He would let me hang out with his friends and
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| Life felt normal for once
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| But the happiness I had only lasted a second
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| Mom and Dad separated same year, so my brother moved away when we finally had
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| our friendship
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| Made a lot of friends with kids in the same boat
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| No male role models for us to observe and be our guide
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| Dropped out of school, hit a learning curve, relied
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| On each other trying to persevere in life
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| Insecurities are high
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| Feeling unloved, searching for a girl that can provide
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| She wanna take it further, I’m worried that I’m gonna blow my cover 'cause I
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| said I’m not a virgin and I lied
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| I finally fertilized
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| Then she left me for another guy
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| But years flying by, life is like a circus ride
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| We done did the worst, too much dirt to purify
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| Mom was working nights
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| Helicopters circling outside
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| Lot of murders, lot of fights
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| Lot of nights heard the cries from my mom’s room
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| Household with no one in control
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| Everything crumbled, I was young but now I’m grown
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| Suddenly my brother and my father coming home
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| And it’s
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| So unreal
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| When we’re all together you can feel the tension and it’s
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| Unfair
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| Started fighting at my brother’s college graduation but it
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| Goes unsaid
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| When you love each other ain’t no conversation, hated
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| All those years
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| Wishing I could erase them
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| There’s a pain way down
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| That’s been trapped inside
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| Let the pain drain out
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| Left the past behind
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| But sometimes my mind…
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| Press rewind |