Lyrics Foolin' - Raphi

Foolin'

Staring off in space with a blank look on my face
The taste on my kisser has grown bitter from a little bit of unwanted change
It’s funny how time will fly then rearrange
It never seems to look or feel the same
Conceal the pain and crack jokes
I’m used to being the comedian.
You’ll see me in the spot laughing
But inside, that’s not happening
It’s cool as long as no one knows that I’m slowly crashing
It’s everything like something ain’t quite right
Stuff that used to get me hype is now boring
It all feels foreign pour some more in cuz I’m rolling on empty
On th grind, quick fill up
Hoping nobody can see that I’m hangin' on
But my arms ain’t as strong as they used to be
So I put on a happy face and walk in the door
Play the roll like I have it all under control
I tell myself «they don’t know» but
Who am I foolin'?
There’s only so much I can juggle
A new day, a new struggle
Are they too blind to see that I’m losing my mind?
Tell me, who am I foolin'?
Because it ain’t me
Are they too blind to see?
Laying awake alone at home
Sinking back ina zone where I can postpone thinking about who I’m without
Racking my brain and going insane
This life is full of shackles and pain
She was the one who freed me.
She used to need me
Indeed, we sure had something worth fighting for
I guess she got tired of the war
She rose the white flag and marched out the door
I got burned again.
Wondering what I met her for
She said a metaphor talkin' 'bout «love's a chore.»
Well, if it’s punishment, keep it.
I’m done with it
Whey even have a heart?
They’ll steal it and run with it
Then toss it when they’re done having their fun with it
Plus, if I didn’t lover her, then I could recover quick
But that ain’t the case.
I made the same mistakes
I’m cool on love.
I guess I’ve got to be a thug
Who am I foolin'?
That ain’t me
I can’t be no O.G.
I’m just an emcee
I guess I’m too blind to see what it takes to keep the tight ones
Who am I foolin'?
Even when you come real it’s like they’re too blind to see
So I’m still lonely
Some say that all work and no play will turn blue skies gray
So I pray that my soul don’t turn charcoal
I’m in the midst of a feud losing control
Choosing to go down the low road
Now, I’m bruised and I know how some can stop believing
In things unseen in the maze
All the while, days get shorter and nights get longer
Even your biggest supporters say
«You're wrong to keep on the path in which you learned your craft.»
Think I’m gon' slow up?
Naw, it’s time to grow up.
Why?
I’m trying to blow up.
Hold up!
Man I feel like I’m gon' throw up and fold
But they say it’s part of the game
The loss and gain, getting tossed in the rain
Every year it’s the same.
Going against the grain
So I guess I’m the one to blame.
But I’m sayin'
Wo am I foolin'?
Try and show a little muscle
New day.
I gotta hustle
Are they too blind to see that you need peace of mind?
Tell me, who am I foolin'?
I got skills but most are too blind to see