| i’m sittin in the room with a knife in my hand
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| with a plan all night to take the life of a man
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| a soul with a dark heart and the devil in his eyes
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| provider and father figure, high level of disguise
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| he had the neighborhood fooled with his fatherly act
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| they didn’t know how he left us in a poverty trap
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| didn’t know his angry fist went across mommies face
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| or his two timing ways left my mother a disgrace
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| no one knew how he put fear into his family
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| his temper angered rage was damn near insanity
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| tragically it came to this
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| it’s ether him, or the blade cut across my vein that
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| would drain my wrist
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| tonight, and end to all the pain and fear
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| and the csi is left clueless and my name is clear
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| too many unanswered prayers and i lost faith rapidly
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| scream to the sky, why did god turn his back on me
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| hook (2x's)
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| i killed a man on fathers day, god forbid me,
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| i sent a man on his way, god forgive me
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| lord have mercy on my soul, when the hurts beyond control
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| the demons in my mind are gonna haunt me till i’m cold
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| 2nd verse
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| do you know what it’s like to have fear sit in the pit of ya stomach
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| with severe punishment as if he loved it
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| my heart races as i grab the knife tighter
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| and pray for the strength that i can make his life expire
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| i’m tense and on the edge and my strife is dire
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| and to protect myself i live my life as a liar
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| it was all those fuckin' beatings that gave me lies
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| and he thought that beatingme up would make me wise
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| and i got smacked if i stood brave
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| he’d puff weed in my face screamin' behave and get good grades
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| the wounds reflected through the mirror in the bathroom
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| and i could’nt connect with anyone sittin' in the classroom
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| you fucked me up bad man, and you chuckle like you glad
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| smile across ya face but i’ll have the last laugh
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| it’s your 1st born with a heart full of enmity
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| holdin the shank razor sharp kill the enemy
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| hook (2x's)
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| i killed a man on fathers day, god forbid me,
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| i sent a man on his way, god forgive me
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| lord have mercy on my soul, when the hurts beyond control
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| the demons in my mind are gonna haunt me till i’m cold
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| 3rd verse:
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| my anger’s getting the best of me
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| while the devil posses the rest of me
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| my little brother’s an accessory
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| i’ve been robbed of my childhood and self esteem
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| a life limited by a selfish feind
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| manipulated my mind and said mother was worthless
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| when he’s home from work i’m not glad i’m nervous
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| it’s fear of that unknown momment
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| when his anger can snap and he can no longer
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| control it or hold it vengence is mine despite what sayeth the lord
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| it’s the end of the line and i smite and slay with a sword
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| the kitchen knife spits his life on to the bedroom floor
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| his twitchin life slips and then no more
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| it’s finally finished, i found freedom in the form of a fallen demon
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| sit and explore a reason
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| ya had a chance to redeem ya self and it got away
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| and i laugh at you bleedin fucker, happy fathers day
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| hook (2x's)
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| i killed a man on fathers day, god forbid me,
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| i sent a man on his way, god forgive me
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| lord have mercy on my soul, when the hurts beyond
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| control the demons in my mind are gonna haunt me till i’m cold |