Lyrics My Own Company - Negative Self

My Own Company

You won’t help me
I need you to help me!
Save me from myself
This might be a step backwards (no!)
Actually all the way back to where I once started (Started)
(So I got to climb back up again, all the fucking way)
(Feel it) The start of demise, a pitiful need, I hate how it bleeds
Don’t want to swallow it down;
It makes it harder to breathe (I feel it burning inside)
(Feel it) The start of demise, a pitiful need, I hate how it bleeds
Don’t want to swallow it down;
It makes it harder to breathe (I feel it burning inside)
In my own company
Give in!
Give in to the pain, lie down and roll over
(Time to play dead)
The weight on my shoulders from all I keep within
My own little secret
(Tucked away tight)
Behind lock and key
Yet it keeps breaking out
Someday you’ll realize
It’s going to spark your doubt
And so it’s time again
(Hiding) From the ugly side of me, the one I don’t want to be
Victim of my own fucking mind
(Hide it) So I can take a part in a
Normal way of life and try to learn to breathe
Hiding from the ugly side of me, the side you don’t want to see
Understand the reasons, know why it’s there, did you ever really care?
After some duration and self-evaluation
I think it’s gone
But after we’ve parted, back right where I started
[Outro}
Once again I’m alone but it feels like home
(Home sweet home, all alone)
But it feels like home
(Home sweet home, all alone)
I’m all alone
(Home sweet home, all alone)