Lyrics Torn - Mayfield

Torn

I was caught up in the same routine of grinding out the day
Tearing my flesh apart
Trying to fight the urge to self-destruct
Where did the light go?
A daily sacrifice of my body and my mind
To get where I want to be
We’re all in this together to make something of this life
I won’t shed another drop of blood for you
And I won’t justify my reasons I’m not like you
Coerced into patterns of slavery
Conceded by meaningless gain
I can’t remember what its like to love
I’m not as patient as I used to be
As I once was
Don’t feel connected to anyone anymore
And I won’t fake this anymore
Is there still something good in me?
I feel demonic on the best of days
We shy away from our deepest desire
When there’s no spark of resolution in sight
So I’ll medicate myself until I fall asleep
Tell me you don’t do the same
Waking up to every sunrise and living on repeat
Is a deathly reaction to fear
So while you waste away your life
I’m after mine
This is not the life that I set up to live
And I can’t even escape myself
I’m holding on but still I’m losing my grip on this
There’s nothing left in me that you would want a fragment of
I’ll stay the clenching hands that tighten around your throat
I’ve sunken low, but I‘m ascending back to the surface