Lyrics Recovery - Mayfield

Recovery

I want to ease away my pain
And pretend to feel okay
A last ditch effort to make it through the day
I got to know that I’m on the verge of breaking down
To want to climb the mountain to the meadows and fall into relief
Staying on the tracks it seems impossible for me
But I feel the warming touch of grace and I know it’s worth the war
Taking steps to clear my head, I’m avoiding all that’s getting too heavy to
keep this close
I let myself decay into this ghost
I wish that I could lie to myself like you do
All the things I would give
The things I wish I never knew
Resented, I drag myself by the feet
Don’t want to let this take anymore from me
I walk along these hopeless shores
Death is reaching out
But I won’t take his fuckin hand
Get me back on track again
I wonder when this will end
Self control
A loaded gun pointed at my head
I go back and forth
Along the same old course
And never stop to think
Ill fix myself one day
Just like an open wound
I never heal enough
It leaves me feeling nothing
There’s got to be something here that keeps my head on straight
I won’t just break, ill always bend
To the point where I won’t greet the end
I wish that I could lie to myself like you do
All the things I would give
The things I wish I never knew
Resented, I drag myself by the feet
Don’t want to let this take anymore from me
I have wasted countless years of my life
Feeling hopeless and hollow
Now I’m hoping I could change this time
But the change was always there, its deep inside of you its just been locked
away
I wish that I could lie to myself like you do
All the things I would give
The things I wish I never knew
Resented, I drag myself by the feet
Don’t want to let this take anymore from me