
Date of issue: 13.09.2010
Record label: No Sleep
Song language: English
Why It Scares Me |
At times I’ve shouted out unprovoked, at the world and you |
Just to see if the people around me react |
Sometimes I think they’re all acting |
At times I’m scared that I’m acting too. |
Like |
My movements or stage directions? |
Was that a change in topic or a beat in a scene? |
Have I been taking my emotional cues from a script I wrote at sixteen? |
Maybe I just think about it all so much |
That that the fear stays close to all the ghosts I’ve touched |
Makes me question |
Was it love or just lust? |
Caked in blood or old rust? |
I don’t know |
Don’t we remember all the moments we remember the best |
Framed in poems and in pictures, sang aloud in refrains? |
Does this cycle of pain and disdain for the past |
Not work exactly the same? |
Maybe it’s just as much about what comes our way as it is how we react |
Just as much about the things that we’ve still got as it is about the things we |
lack |
I know, we won’t always keep around those we feel we need- |
Some are fading in frames, some were born to leave- |
But if we’re still here, and we still breathe |
At least we’ve still got time to figure it out |
To know what to do |
To know how to feel |
Know the things that I’ve been making up inside my head |
And to know what’s real |
I want to believe that the way I am is just the way it goes |
For the things that came, not the things I chose to come |
I want to know if I had any control |
I want to know if it’d comfort me |
And if my heart just stops, pack my memories in it- |
I want to know all the love I’ve got |
And if my heart just stops, keep me alive for a minute- |
I want to know if a curtain drops |
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