| Don’t call this an art project.
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| This is science, this is progress.
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| And don’t pretend these are heartfelt words, we are
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| Children dressed as surgeons but disturbed by the sight of our scars.
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| And now we carry scalpels to trace the scarring resting somewhere
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| On the line between my house, your heart and into your home.
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| Where you lay sleeping like a ceiling fan in winter,
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| Gently turning as the wind reaches it’s fingers through the window
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| Just to hold you, like I held you.
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| Pressed like a rose between my fingers or like stones
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| I keep in pockets meant to weigh me underwater.
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| These scars will fade away but never disappear, my dear.
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| We’ll raise our fists like lightning to rods to god and
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| If he strikes us down,
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| Then he strikes us down.
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| But first, let him hear us speak:
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| We are like the legacy of thunderstorms we watched and swore in doorways,
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| «we will never be the same again.»
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| I can feel you healing and I hate it,
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| (Like a harpist without hands you only bang the strings
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| You used to love to touch so much)
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| To hear the dissonance drain violently and then dissolve
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| Like all the songs I sang but never once could make you smile.
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| My god, I would kill to make you smile.
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| And reach out to my hands, soft and frail,
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| To make good on the love that you swear still exists, and still thrives
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| Though we’ve buried our bodies in blood (and old lies,
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| Like, «I'm fine"and «you look so much better than him»
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| But don’t trust the surgeon with your heart,
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| She’s drunk and sips from poison cups, and
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| Don’t you trust the scientist,
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| He says «life-is-like-a-wineglass"as he spills his drink
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| Like secrets
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| All across your dress and says:
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| «my dear, I must confess, I never thought you ever knew what love was like for
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| real.
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| I never thought you needed me.") |