
Date of issue: 03.10.2011
Record label: No Sleep
Song language: English
a Letter |
Everybody wants a reason for everything |
It’s so much easier with someone or something to blame |
I’ve always struggled at the root of the problem |
Has it been absence or my constant lack of defense? |
I’ve never spent a lot on finding a remedy |
I guess I figured that it hurt for a reason |
I guess that’s why I’ve always turned to writing it down |
Not just in stories, but the letters in between |
And I guess that’s why it haunts the pages of everything- |
To self-examine |
I think the thing is that I shut off from everything |
From friends and family and my own ambitions |
From having fun |
I just shut off from everything |
Self-defeating? |
Yeah, probably |
But I don’t know that I had total control over it |
And I’m not sure it even matters why |
Sometimes things happen and you can’t do anything |
Plus, I’m the only one who deals with it anyway |
So if everyone could do me a favor and |
Just put their fingers down |
I’d-and keep your mouths- |
Sorry. |
I know I seem angry |
I’m not, I… I promise. |
I just know I did this to me |
And I will deal with it accordingly |
And I don’t need opinions from those never a part of it |
Don’t need them pointing out my problems, they’re mine |
Don’t need reminders, I know better than anyone |
And yeah, I know, I should be finding another way |
I know that I should be out seeking a substitute |
But just forgetting never really made sense to me |
So I haven’t been |
Do I feel embarrassed about it? |
I think you know the answer to that |
I think you’d probably feel a little bit embarrassed for me |
Wouldn’t you? |
I know I should’ve moved on ages ago, been happy already |
But it’s never been that easy for me |
Or maybe it was me that made it so hard |
I know I’ve only ever tried a handful of times |
To sever this thing torturing me |
It never got me anywhere, with anyone |
No friendship or hobby, no lover’s bed worked |
But looking back I maybe never tried hard enough |
And it is my fault |
Maybe I never tried at all |
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Such Small Hands | 2018 |
Andria | 2018 |
The Most Beautiful Bitter Fruit | 2011 |
King Park | 2011 |
Said the King to the River | 2018 |
New Storms for Older Lovers | 2018 |
Fall Down, Never Get Back Up Again | 2018 |
Damaged Goods | 2018 |
Bury Your Flame | 2018 |
How I Feel | 2010 |
Safer in the Forest/Love Song for Poor Michigan | 2011 |
Nobody, Not Even the Rain | 2018 |
Woman (reading) | 2014 |
Thirteen | 2016 |
Nine | 2015 |
Last Blues for Bloody Knuckles | 2018 |
Sad Prayers for Guilty Bodies | 2018 |
The Castle Builders | 2018 |
Woman (in mirror) | 2014 |
Future Wars | 2006 |