| BBQ food is good
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| You invite me out to eat it, I should…
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| Go, but I’m feeling kind of nervous
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| And not quiet myself
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| So I’m running late on purpose
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| And I know this won’t help
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| How things have become between us
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| But if I go you’ll give me hell
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| And that I don’t know how to fix it
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| Is making me unwell
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| Well
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| I arrive at your house
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| But you’ve just got up
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| And you are wearing a towel
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| And your eyes look dark
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| I help to dry your body
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| And I see your cut
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| So I give you a plaster
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| And we cover it up
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| I say «Have you been crying?»
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| And you say «Shut up»
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| So we sit in the garden
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| And touch the grass
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| With our hands
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| The sun is going down now
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| And it’s been okay
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| You tell me all the things you did
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| While I was away
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| And this worries me somewhat
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| You say you’re fine
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| Listen
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| Can you hear it?
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| Does it speak?
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| Will I feel it?
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| Will it hurt?
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| Am I near it?
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| I don’t know
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| I don’t know how more people haven’t got mental health problems
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| Thinking is one of those stressful things I’ve ever come across
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| And not being able to articulate what I want to say drives me crazy
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| I think I should try and read more books
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| And learn some new words
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| My sister used to read the dictionary
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| I’m going to start with that
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| I’d like to travel
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| I want to see India, and the pyramids
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| A whale and that race with all the bicycles in France
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| I’m not sure about rivers, they scare me
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| But I love swimming, I’m good at it
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| And when I swim I count the laps
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| And this helps me relax
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| When I was younger I saw a house burn down
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| And I walked past it for the next six years
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| Derelict, black, chalky and dangerous
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| I wondered if squatters lived there
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| I’m still not sure but I know there were never any parties cause it was a
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| shithole
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| After a while the council got around to tidying up the town
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| They decided it was an eye sore so they tore it down
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| Behind the house was a wall with a few bits of crappy graffiti and the word
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| 'CUNT' written on it in giant letters
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| And now I walk past that
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| I like going to the park
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| And I like walking through it
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| I like taking my dogs there
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| And friends, and I like being alone
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| I like flowers and simplicity
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| I like compassion and thoughtful gifts
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| I like being able to shout
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| But I wish I could be quiet
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| When I’m quiet people think I’m sad
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| And usually I am
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| Sometimes when I’m at a really noisy train station
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| One of the ones with the big fat trains like Kings Cross
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| I feel like putting down my bags and shouting things out because I’ve got
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| something to say
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| Don’t you want to share the guilt?
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| Don’t think, just try and sleep |