Lyrics Shadowboxing - Julien Baker

Shadowboxing

Born cutting teeth on the curb
Summoning ghosts up from the concrete
Keeping me company while I learned
Shadowboxing with giants
That grew from our feet
I know that you don’t understand
'Cause you don’t believe what you don’t see
When you watch me throwing punches at the devil
Ooh, it just looks like I’m fighting with me
But there’s a comfort in failure
Singing too loud in church
Screaming my fears into speakers
'Til I collapse or I burst
Whichever comes first
I know you were trying to help
But you’re only making it worse
Tell me that I shouldn’t blame myself
But you can’t even imagine how badly it hurts
Just to think sometimes
How I think almost all the time
So break me down
Folded over your arms
Like an unloaded shotgun
Dismantled and harmless
Even you couldn’t manage to pull
The fuse from the back of my head
When you tell me you love me
Tell me you loved me
I wanted so bad to believe it
So tell me you love me
Tell me you loved me
I wanted so bad
I wanted so bad to believe you