Lyrics A Riverside Story - Jodye, Shido

A Riverside Story

Listen I ain’t dissing religion but my look at my position with these kids at
Clinton pistol whipping on top of that my father never visits
I lost my patience at graduation you spent years telling me I wouldn’t make it
Got the diploma and you ain’t come see me take it
But I don’t wanna fight
I just want be that son maybe you would like
Took the train home like nigga fuck my life
Watched a movie with a friend I got high that night
Waking up everyday like it’s my last day
Your death was so fast pace
I was your friend I was your classmate now I just keep replaying your last days
Wishing I had a last say
Picking up that knife
Tearing ya wrist till you cease the light
This world ain’t so bright
When you killed yourself I feel like you killed us both
I don’t know how to fucking cope so I just fucking smoke till I pass out or I’m
bout to choke
Hoping I get high enough just to reach you
Truth be told I fucking need you
Yeah I fucking need you
I ain’t blaming you
I ain’t shaming you
I should’ve been a better friend
Should’ve notice the change in you
I know what it’s like to stay up all night
And think bad things about your life
You wish was gone
But homie that only pass the problem on
Don’t lecture me
This rap shit more than check for me
They call me Best friend but they never check for me
I’m friends with the carjackers and the card clappers
Police with the tasers wanna zap us
Rivals attack us
May the lord strap us
I don’t know where I’ma end up after
Keep your heart hidden and ya middle finger raised
And if you made to the morning it’s a new day
And If you made it to the morning it’s a new day…