Lyrics Initiation - Howling Sycamore

Initiation

I stare at the void in this heart
It’s as translucent as raven’s wings
I listen to its sparse humming
It enters my mind, crawling like a snail
It enchants
I feel the primal danger of it
My blood starts flowing backwards
And so do my thoughts
I see the house I’ll die in
I don’t recognize the door
I walk around it
A red glow is blinking from the windows
I stare at it 'til I get lightheaded
I spew a black stream of doubts
I let go of as many as I can
Certain nights reveal more than lifetimes
Tonight I’m able to look through the walls I’ve built
I can see how innocent fear looks like
I let it be
I let my body deal with it
I witness levitation of my soul
May each spasm bring new purposes
I saw both the base and the top of this pyramid
I think to belong somewhere else
But I accept this path I’m walking on
It’s as silver as a wolf’s hair
It’s as lonely as a wolf can be
But at least it’s mine
But I accept this path I’m walking on
It’s as silver as a wolf’s hair
It’s as lonely as a wolf can be
But at least it’s mine
I see the house I’ll die in
I don’t recognize the door
Tonight I’m able to look through the walls I’ve built
I can see how innocent fear looks like
I let it be
I let my body deal with it
I’ll honor it with this ode to dark times
May words be dancing with clouds and rain
'Til even rats will come out of their nest
Curious about the light spreading up above
I’ll stand as close as I can to this wrath
I’ll turn it into a shield
I’ll learn to breathe around these flames
I’ll let them take over
I’ll learn to contain them
I’ll toss them into the void
To see how deep the fall would be
To count the breaths it will take me
To close this circle with a single brushstroke
And throw the ink in the air
To let chaos draw for me