Song information On this page you can find the lyrics of the song Just How I Feel, Pt. 4, artist - Hotel Books. Album song I'll Leave the Light on Just in Case, in the genre Иностранный рок
Date of issue: 13.02.2019
Record label: InVogue
Song language: English
Just How I Feel, Pt. 4 |
Things lately all seem so tragic |
The self-destruction's been gathering |
Memories I’m hardly fathoming |
Did they happen to me or someone I used to love that sounded like a piece of me |
leaving? |
Every seven years, these cells are replaced |
My body is part soil, part water, part garbage, maybe part you |
Where did the DNA information travel? |
Did I hold on too tight? |
Did I harbor it? |
I don’t know |
Have I grown to love the world around me because I built it? |
Did I allow myself to experience life or just an echo chamber for the wicked? |
I guess I never asked what would happen if the doctor got sick |
Because to me, healers were never people, they were part of a service, |
and now I’m scared I’ve abused it |
So where do good people go when they die, the ones you reject? |
I wish you would disappear again so I could find myself |
I’ll swallow my pride if it means I wouldn’t be so afraid of hell |
Embellished or simply untrue |
When I look into a mirror, can I still say, «I love you»? |
Whatever whispered back «I love you, too,» was my reflection ashamed of the |
words I’ve shared? |
When I turned on myself, will there be another pain to bear? |
And with all of this, I keep the curtains shut |
The sun reminds me of better days |
I don’t think about it too much |
I keep my heart in my back pocket and my mind trapped in the strain |
And now I just take it day by day |
I miss looking up to Bill Cosby |
I miss innocence |
I miss being selfish |
I miss Gene Wilder and Garry Shandling |
I miss being afraid of marijuana |
I miss when my friends hated me |
I miss Jersey Shore |
I miss being afraid of the dark |
I missed my grandma’s funeral to play music for 15 kids |
I miss not having to hate myself to feel like I’m balancing out the score |
I miss not being sick |
I miss the pity I got when I was sick |
I miss loving those around |
I miss embracing hope |
I miss when my heroes seemed perfect, but thank God they’ve been called out, |
'cause I’m not living in the sickening ignorance |
I miss me |
I miss myself |
I miss feeling lovely |
I miss feeling loved |
I miss feeling love |
I missed three calls from you because I was watching TV |
Not even a show I liked, just a show that I got sucked into |
One of those shows about home renovations |
I hated it, but I had to know if the seafoam tile in the bathroom would come in |
under budget |
I miss the bad weather |
I miss excuses |
I miss the smell of a dinner being cooked for my whole family under one roof |
I miss blank stares from across the room |
I missed my moment to love you the right way the first time and I’m still |
beating myself up for it |
I miss a lot of things |
I miss nothing |
I miss the nothingness that comes with missing nothing |
But I miss the something I feel when I miss something |
Or everything, or nothing |
I miss skating |
I miss watching you sing, even though I never heard you do it before |
I miss those nights when my knees would hit the bedroom floor, 'cause I still |
believed in the power of praying |
I miss the days where I didn’t believe in prayer at all, 'cause there was no |
guilt |
I miss watching Boy Meets World with my babysitter |
He’s the one who showed me P.O.D. |
and since then, I’ve been much happier |
I miss me |
I miss myself |
I miss feeling lovely |
I miss feeling loved |
I miss feeling love |
And someday, when my bones are dust, and my DNA’s been spread through the |
garbage behind your house, I hope you also miss me |
The first time one of my friends started smoking cigarettes I thought, «This is the end of him, he’s gonna lose himself in this» |
Not realizing a pack a day was common for the people around me |
I was just blinded to it 'cause it never happened in my own family |
And I was afraid of perspective |
Now I’m afraid of perspective |
And I’m afraid of perspective |
And I’m afraid of perspective |
'Cause it’ll chase me |
«If it is human nature to reject struggle, then I reject nature. |
We have become so soaked in irony, we are starting to drown.» |
«If it is human nature to reject struggle, then I reject nature. |
We have become so soaked in irony, we are starting to drown.» |
«If it is human nature to reject struggle, then I reject nature. |
We have become so soaked in irony, we are starting to drown.» |
«If it is human nature to reject struggle, then I reject nature. |
We have become so soaked in irony, we are starting to drown.» |
«If it is human nature to reject struggle, then I reject nature. |
We have become so soaked in irony, we are starting to drown.» |
«If it is human nature to reject struggle, then I reject nature. |
We have become so soaked in irony, we are starting to drown.» |
Death is not a moment in our lives |
Death is constant |
And our lives are a moment |
So when we choose to spend our lives hating someone else |
It’s a moment |
We hate something we see |
In ourselves |