| I feel like a mouth facilitating the language constructed by the mind of
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| depression
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| A vocal confirmation that I have diluted my ambition to accommodate my
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| aggression
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| Watered down prayer requests to a sky painted blue, like the ocean of my heart
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| Settled for what I detest to a lie that the truth kept us apart
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| With a sea between hope and me, I lack the ability to figure out where to start
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| Letting fear sit in the drivers seat to a hearse to comfort me as I drive back
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| to insanity
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| Disconnected from the discontent strategies de-straddled the child inside of me
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| Feeding greens to the the malnourished spirit I identified myself as
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| A heart of glass, fragile enough to break, but once put on display,
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| it doesn’t hurt so bad
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| Cause sometimes, I felt sick. |
| I felt poisoned. |
| But other moments, I was asleep.
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| It was a day I felt chosen, but through self torment; |
| I was knee deep in a
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| sinking sand called grief
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| Feeling let down by my poor decisions, I felt in eternity without you,
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| was one not worth living?
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| I hope to someday have the faith to believe in God as much as he believes in me
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| I hope to someday have the faith to believe in God as much as he believes in me.
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| After years of feeling inadequate to the bars set by those superior to me,
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| I found strength, but not in the place I was looking
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| Investing monetary value into the half-truth of the pharmaceuticals being quiet,
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| a ghost
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| I finally became accepting of myself as part of the solution, no more of that
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| pointless appointment booking
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| I surrendered control to the heart inside of me and let my passion drive until
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| I was done completely
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| Done completely out of the hole, gained back control, saved from the cold,
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| feeling back home
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| Or maybe feeling home for the first time
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| Because for the first time in a long time, I felt alive. |
| I felt the ability to
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| strive
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| I felt like there were odds stacked for me, and love was on my side
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| Everybody has the strength to do great things as long as we don’t compromise
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| for a world of things
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| Darling, you deserve so much more than what this world has given you;
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| I promise it’s true
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| And if you see through it, you can do anything, anything you set your heart to
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| I’ve been at the lowest point beyond anything I ever did foresee
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| And with the power of love and ambition, I found myself back into a place of
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| peace
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| And you are deserving of authenticity and legitimacy and the riveting awakening
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| that can only be found through the love and defeat of a beautiful king
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| No tyranny, no family holding you together as the wounds heal
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| You are deserving of so much more than what this world has offered.
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| You are deserving of so much more than what this world has offered…
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| You deserve the love of a beautiful king… |