Lyrics raison d’être - Dir En Grey

raison d’être

I loved you too much.
That’s what I aIways did back then
But I’m tired of watching you.
I already have somebody else in my arms
Immediately, I cannot love you.
Hatred is welling up inside of me
I just want to destroy everything.
Do you like my selfishness as well?
I wanted more than I couId say
I longed only for your body
In front of the mirror,
a clown, the only person performing,
Just came close to me and asked
Is it her or me that is torturing you?
I’m all alone and mumbling to myself
I had already hurt you before realizing it Here I am,
but we’ll never understand each other
In front of the mirror,
a clown, the only person performing,
Just came close to me and asked
Is it her or me that is torturing you?
I’m all alone and mumbling to myself
I can’t believe the end has come like this
I’m dizzy from the pain
You are laughing and screaming in front of me,
looking at the blood-red razor
aishisugite ita ne ano goro no boku wa itsu demo sou
demo mou miakita yo ude ni betsu no hito ga iru ne sugu ni aisenaku nari nikushimi ga komiageru yo tataki kowashitaku naru boku no wagamama mo suki kai
kotoba yori mo motto motomete ita
karada dake wo motomete ita yo kagami no mae de tada hitori enji kitta piero ga sotto boku no mae ni yori iu no sa
kimi wo kurushimeru no wa boku ka sore tomo kanojo ka hitori no boku ga sasayuku no sa kizuku goro ni wa kizutsukete ita
wakariaenai boku ga iru yo kagami no mae de tada hitori enji kitta piero ga sotto boku no mae ni yori iu no sa
kimi wo kurushimeru no wa boku ka sore tomo kanojo ka hitori no boku ga sasayuku no sa saigo wa konna katachi nante ki ga tooku naru hodo ni itakute
me no mae de kimi ga warai sakebu akai kamisori mitsume nagara
愛しすぎていたね あの頃の僕はいつでもそう
でももう見飽きたよ 腕に別の人がいるね
すぐに愛せなくなり 憎しみが込み上げるよ
叩き壊したくなる 僕の我がままも好きかい
言葉よりももっと求めていた
体だけを求めていたよ
鏡の前でただ人演じきった道化師が
そっと僕の前に寄り言うのさ
君を苦しめるのは僕かそれとも彼女か
人の僕が囁くのさ
気付く頃には傷つけていた
解り合えない僕がいるよ
鏡の前でただ1人演じきった道化師が
そっと僕の前に寄り言うのさ
君を苦しめるのは僕かそれとも彼女か
人の僕が囁くのさ
最後はこんな形なんて 気が遠くなるほどに痛くて
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