| May 10th. |
| Thank God for the rain, which has helped wash the garbage and the
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| trash off the sidewalks. |
| I’m workin' long hours now, six days a week.
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| Sometimes seven days a week. |
| It’s a long hustle, but it keeps me real busy.
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| I can take in three, three fifty a week, sometimes even more if I do it off
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| the meter
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| All the animals come out at night. |
| Buggers, queens, fairies, dopers, junkies.
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| Sick, venal. |
| Someday a real rain will come that will wash all the scum off the
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| streets
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| I go all over. |
| I take people to the Bronx, Brooklyn, Harlem, I don’t care.
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| Don’t make no difference to me. |
| It does to some. |
| Some won’t even take spooks.
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| Don’t make no difference to me. |
| Each night when I return the cab to the garage,
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| I have to clean the backseat. |
| Some nights I clean off the blood.
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| Twelve hours at work and I still can’t sleep. |
| Damn. |
| Days go on and on.
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| It don’t end. |
| All my life, meaning was a sense of someplace to go.
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| I don’t believe that one should devote his life to morbid self-attention.
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| I believe that someone should become a person like other people
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| Loneliness has followed me my whole life, everywhere. |
| In bars, in cars.
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| Sidewalks, stores, everywhere. |
| There’s no escape. |
| I’m God’s lonely man
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| June 8th. |
| Life has taken another turn again. |
| The days move on with regularity,
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| over and over. |
| Then suddenly, there is change
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| June 29th. |
| I gotta get in shape. |
| From now on, I’m gonna do 50 push-ups every
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| morning. |
| Fifty pull-ups. |
| From now on, it’ll be total organization.
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| Every muscle must be tight. |
| The idea had been growing in my brain for some
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| time. |
| True force. |
| All the king’s men could not put it back together again
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| You talkin' to me? |
| You talkin' to me? |
| You talkin' to me? |
| Who the hell else are
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| you talkin' to? |
| You talkin' to me? |
| Well, I’m the only one here. |
| Who do you
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| think you’re talkin' to? |
| Oh, yeah? |
| Huh
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| Listen you screwheads, here’s a man who would not take it anymore.
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| A man who stood up against the scum, the dogs, the filth. |
| Someone who stood up
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| Now I see it clearly. |
| My whole life has pointed in one direction.
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| I see that now. |
| There never has been any choice for me |