| And, man, it has been a journey
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| The drugs and alcohol have been whatever
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| Uh, I don’t know if I’ll always be sober I have no idea
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| But the thing that keeps me involved is
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| I get to learn so much about myself about loving others about acceptance
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| It’s introduced me to other issues that I have that
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| You know, maybe drugs and alcohol aren’t even my issue
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| It’s just introduced me into a world of, like, introspection
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| Like, for the first time, I can take a look at myself and I still Look,
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| I got a ton of faults, I’m not
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| But I know that if I stay, like, on this path that things can get better I
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| believe that 'cause there’s proof for me
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| You know, my career has gotten better
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| You know, I’ve met people that have loved me
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| You know, I’ve been in and out or a relationship with somebody that loved me
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| For one of the first times in my life that I really felt that
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| Not that other people hadn’t loved me in the past but this was the first time I
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| could feel it
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| You know, and it’s just because something had changed Inside of me, you know,
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| where I didn’t need to just have all the walls up or whatever to survive
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| anymore, like
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| You know, I think my higher power wants to tell me, «Look, man, you’re gonna be
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| okay, you know, you can take a break»
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| You know
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| Anyway, you know, I don’t know if I’ll always be
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| A part of this program or not
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| But, you know
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| For the first time in my life I can tell you a true story
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| Like, this story, like, that’s a true story
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| You know, for the first time in my life I can tell you a true story
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| Like this story, like that’s a true story
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| (True story, true story)
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| (True story, true story)
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| You know, all the years of, like, having to lie and, like, being ashamed of who
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| I was or what I was or anything or anything like that
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| It’s still okay to tell stories
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| It’s okay to create and be wanna bring people together and
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| And be a storyteller and think about things and that’s all okay, but,
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| for the first time my life I have a little bit of a story of my own
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| You know, and there are moments
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| You know, not always but there’s moments where I don’t feel as ashamed of
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| myself as I did for so long, man
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| You know, I was so ashamed I was so ashamed of myself for nothing
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| Really for nothing
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| Just because at a young age nobody had told me not to be ashamed of myself
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| You know, nobody had told me, «Hey, man, you’re okay»
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| You know, nobody had told me, «Hey, man, you are okay and you’re not a bad
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| person»
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| You’re not a bad person
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| Because, for so much of my life I wanted to know that about myself and now I’d
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| go into these rooms and I hear other people’s stories and, and I feel a certain
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| way and there is proof right there
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| Inside of me, living inside of my body through feeling and through love
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| And that’s dope, man
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| Shit is fucking dope
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| For the first time in my life I can tell you a true story
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| Like, this story, like, that’s a true story
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| You know, for the first time in my life I can tell you a true story
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| Like this story, like that’s a true story
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| (True story, true story)
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| (True story, true story) |