| So anyhow
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| Wasn’t getting crazy into drugs or anything like that
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| But I had one night where I ended up in a taxi cab
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| And a woman said something to me, kinda rejected me
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| In, like, a mean way
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| And I hadn’t done anything wild I just expressed some interested
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| And she expressed interest and then I returned the expression and then she was
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| mean to me
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| And she didn’t reject me, rejection’s fine, but she was mean to me, all a sudden
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| The taxi driver dropped her off, we were in a taxi
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| Next thing you know, I end up with the taxi driver
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| Four hours later me and him are doing cocaine together
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| And I’m driving the taxi
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| He’s in the back, he’s in the back with an escort
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| He bought me an escort I don’t want no escort, you know
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| Luigi, that was the guy’s name
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| And we’re in north Harlem and I’m driving a taxi and the meter is still running
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| I’m still paying for that taxi
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| I wasn’t getting crazy
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| But I had one night
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| I had one night, I had one night
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| I wasn’t getting crazy
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| But I had one night
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| I had one night, I had one night
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| And that morning I was in New York because I had to be on a big radio show
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| called «The Opie with Jim Norton Radio Show»
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| And they have, like, a million listeners and it was a huge opportunity
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| If you’d have asked me the night before, «Hey, man, are you gonna stay up all
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| night partying, (go, girl) before you go into the radio?»
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| I’d have said, «No way I would never do that.»
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| And then here I was in this moment and it’s 5:00 a.m. I gotta go to the radio,
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| you know
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| I mean, I got to my hotel after driving taxi and then paying for it
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| Dude, just blown outta my mind, dude I couldn’t feel my face with either hand
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| At first I thought something was wrong with my hands but then I realized
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| something wrong with my face
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| I get to the radio station
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| Dude, I took three showers in 10 minutes before I went there
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| So you know you on some really svelte dust if you’re taking three showers in 10
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| minutes and drying off between each one
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| And that’s cocaine, Papa
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| I wasn’t getting crazy
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| But I had one night
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| I had one night, I had one night
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| I wasn’t getting crazy
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| But I had one night
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| I had one night, I had one night
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| And I get to the radio station
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| And I can’t even talk
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| And the other guest for the day was Darryl Strawberry, Hall of Fame baseball
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| player
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| And he’s, you look him up and he’s one of the greatest baseball players ever
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| but his career was really a-altered by cocaine
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| And here he was I was on the radio with him I had collected his cards when I
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| was young and I couldn’t even talk
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| (I couldn’t even talk)
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| The main gift that God had given me was my voice and I couldn’t even use it
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| Because I’d been up all night
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| Just using drugs to feel good somehow
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| Using drugs to feel good somehow
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| Using drugs to feel good somehow
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| Or using drugs to feel anything
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| Using drugs to feel good somehow
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| U-using drugs to feel good somehow
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| Using drugs to feel good somehow
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| Or using drugs to feel anything
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| I wasn’t getting crazy
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| But I had one night
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| I had one night, I had one night
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| I wasn’t getting crazy
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| But I had one night
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| I had one night, I had one night
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| And I get to the radio station 'cause I’d always thought in my head, «Oh,
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| Darryl Strawberry, you think, you thought about him, and you thought, oh,
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| he’s on drugs he’s this and that, he ruined his life.»
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| But then here he was in front of me, he was 13 years sober, he was eloquent,
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| successful
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| And I mean he was a dang king sitting in front of me
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| And in that one moment that’s where some things lined up in my life
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| That’s where some things lined up in my mind and said, «oh, hey, look»
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| Here you are with this gift you think you have
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| That you can communicate
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| And you can’t even talk because you fucked up, bruh
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| 'Cause you been out driving taxi
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| And here you are with somebody who you had judged as being fucked up and here
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| he is, a king
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| And it just lined things up in a perfect moment where I just had this moment of,
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| like, «Oh, I need to»
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| Something needs to change for me |