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Feels like my whole life’s in a disarray
I say I’m alright but honestly, I’m not okay
What happened to the head I had on my shoulders
I guess this is what happens when you’re getting older
At 17 I thought I had it all figured out
Doing music is the only thing I dreamed about
But all the passion I had it seemed to leave me
Feels like my soul departed from my body
So now I fill that void with sex and drugs
Psychedelic fucking and smokin' on nugs
Thinking that it’s gonna reignite that Fire
Burning desire, I’m lost and now I’m
Searching for, for the answers
I can’t cope, with this cancer
Lost no hope
Maybe I should end it all
I know what I have is a blessin'
If I’m being grateful why the fuck am I stressin'
Maybe it’s the universe tryna teach me a lesson
That things get harder once you graduate adolescence
This shit is taking a toll on my personal life
Making me bitter towards my girl and family I —
Never knew what depression would ever feel like
Until I lost my drive
I’m soundin' like a motherfucking drama queen
Just want you to know how much this means to me
Music’s my oxygen and I cannot breathe
Looking for inspiration so now I’m
Searching for, for the answers
I can’t cope, with this cancer
Lost no hope
Maybe I should end it all