| If I told you I wanted to talk to you,
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| You think I’m try’na holla at you,
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| And maybe I am but,
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| You wouldn’t hear me out anyway’s would you?,
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| Rather lose love than to move on never knowing what it feel like,
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| Short days, long nights,
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| By the phone, no call,
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| Need a clear mind 'cause I been blind, got me goin' down that road,
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| Heart made of stone,
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| Far away from home,
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| Black woman you cold,
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| Every problem you ever had with another man I gotta face,
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| Started off on thin ice,
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| I’m still here but I can’t skate,
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| Slow sink, can’t breath, no remorse, don’t think,
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| Listen to your friend get another man for a minute then repeat,
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| Queen, you deserve the title but she rejects what I give, while she nurse the
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| wounds by them,
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| Tried them, didn’t work, got impossible standards, nothing I’m a do is gon'
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| work,
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| Diary of a black girl,
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| I wonder why I sit and cry,
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| Wish I could shed all these tears,
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| I’m down and out,
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| I’ll keep on moving and tryna get out,
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| I don’t know how to move on,
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| Where I went wrong,
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| I wish I could live with no fear,
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| So down and out,
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| I’ll keep it moving and tryna get out,
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| Somehow,
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| Raised by a momma who, who,
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| Hates her baby father so, so
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| She don’t have a problem with, with,
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| Saying fuck a nigga Quick, quick,
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| I’m just tryna be the one who never run, but you run away from me,
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| Girlfriends man cheat, cheat,
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| Why not me the same thing,
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| She can’t see in me, what I see in her,
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| This pain she inherit can’t be reversed,
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| I can’t even stay living in the shade of all the motherfuckers who played you,
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| The irony in that is that I aint even that, but you put in these pages,
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| Wife, you deserve the label but, but, you been hurt before so you don’t feel
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| your able,
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| Tried them didn’t work, got impossible standards, nothing that I ever do works,
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| Diary of a black girl,
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| See all I wanna do is be relevant,
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| Just tell me that I ever meant anything more,
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| That you could ever see me and you in another light,
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| But its like the dark women indoors in the darkest nights by the wrong man,
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| see all of them have made you incapable of a first impression,
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| what it do is I channel my aggression with no cable or antenna,
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| Just intentions to impress you if capable,
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| Hoping that the material possessions can materialize to a better you,
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| Cars, nothing I drive can drive you out of this frame of mind,
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| For such an ugly picture and,
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| Money, nothing I buy can buy more time for your ears to tell your heart to
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| listen to it,
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| Diamonds, a girl’s best friend is what they say but believe me with the right
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| allegiance shorty you gonna shine anyways,
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| and everyday that goes by is a couple more lines in her diary,
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| the day before is better than the present,
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| so anyone presented in her presence endures these life sentences,
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| there’s no key for release,
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| no reason to be around,
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| her minds in the clouds,
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| she writes it all down,
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| in her diary, |