| Sent you a Christmas card the other day
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| And I admit I kept it short, I don’t know what to say
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| I haven’t seen you, haven’t spoke, and I don’t know you
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| To the point I even question why I wrote you
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| And I honestly
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| Maybe I was just too young to understand
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| But 15 years and you don’t call, you just a grudgeful man
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| And I don’t really know what dad did
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| But what the fuck it have to do with your grandkids?
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| I even tried to talk to my cousins
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| They didn’t answer either, I’m just talking discussion
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| I’m not saying you gotta be in my life
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| But just a little explanation, man you owe me that right?
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| I still don’t get it and I never will
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| You getting older, bout to find out how forever feels
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| Not trying to say it’s okay
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| But a grudge will be the only thing you’ll take to your grave
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| It’s hard to forgive, it’s hard to forget
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| Can’t even remember just who started this shit
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| The longer it last, the harder it gets
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| To say that I’m sorry
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| Yeah it’s hard to admit
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| It’s hard to forgive, it’s hard to forget
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| Can’t even remember now who started this shit
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| The longer it last, the harder it gets
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| To say that I’m sorry
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| I watched a man who tried to kill me celebrate in court
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| His lawyer put his hand out like what are you waiting for
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| High five it
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| Had an ex ask me if I knew what cutting was, she showed me
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| «You better never ever ever leave me», is what she told me
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| Another friend of mine, looked up to him when we were kids
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| He started smoking crack and then he broke into my crib
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| It wasn’t personal, that had nothin' to do with me
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| That’s the thing that ties it all together, see none of it did
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| So I forgive you
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| Because all the pain you try to blame on me was you protecting yourself (from
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| yourself)
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| I forgive you
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| It couldn’t been anybody, in fact you probably looked at me and saw yourself
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| So I forgive you
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| Because my worst day ever, is every fuckin day of ya life
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| So I forgive you
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| Because I have a feelin' that I had nothing to do with how’d you have lived
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| your life |