Lyrics Pharmacy - Ubi

Pharmacy

Hundred days I slept alone
Faded off of methadone
Use it as a stepping stone
Now my fade is set in stone
More the take, the less I know
Boy I made a mess I know
Asking me if I’m okay
I’d rather just be left alone
A bump of coke, numb my nose
Headed down a bumpy road
Spend a couple months alone
Caught up in a undertow
I was feeling wonderful
But now I’m so uncomfortable
Lightning crashing, thunder rolling
I’m fighting for my fucking soul
Wifey come in and cut the coke
Living like my life is trash
And I am in a rush to go
Vanished in a puff of smoke
Panic cause I’m broke
How the fuck am I suppose to sleep tonight
Now I’m close to fiending
Fight the feeling, I ain’t feeling right
Isolated with my thoughts
That’s what I prefer to be
Think you giving gifts to get me lifted bitch you cursing me
I wonder if it’s purposely
Now I need it urgently
But ain’t no sense of urgency
And I can feel the urge in me
You come between me and my demon, you be pushed aside
Think I might skip out of town tonight, I’m 'bout to book a flight
Had my future looking bright, I don’t know what happened to it
Running down this path of ruin, now I’m Under Bad Influence
Started as a teen when I was smoking marijuana see
Told my family look away from me, no you don’t wanna see
Dance with Mr. Brownstone, and plunge it in my artery
Now what I cook up in spoon is permanently part of me
Open wide and swallow me, hope my son don’t follow me
Told my girl don’t coddle me and told my friend don’t father me
Go away don’t bother me, just please don’t let my mama see
Sick without a cure I need a script from out the pharmacy
I try my hand in Vyvanse, Percocet, Ritalin, and Adderall
Welbutrin and Trazodone, Seroquel and Risperdal
Vivitrol, Lamotrigine, Cymbalta, and Rufenal
Propofol, Abilify, Topamax, and Tramadol
Klonopin and Lithium, Depakote and Diazepam
Vicodin, Celexa, Gabapentin, and an Ativan
Loratadine, Fentanyl, Lexapro, Zyprexa
And a 100 other fucking drugs you don’t know the effect of
I need Vodka, Tequila, I need Bourbon, Scotch, Whiskey
I need Gin without the tonic, I won’t ever stop stiffly
I won’t ever quit quickly, when I quit I get sickly
Sipping now I got tipsy, let my nemesis get me
Now to start my car I breathalyze
My brain drain anesthetized
Told me I’m depressed but they ain’t tell me 'bout SSRIs
Opioid affect alive, a crisis causing death to rise
Pharmaceutical, they serve 'em 'cross the counter, weaponize
Searching for another fix, how the fuck it come to this
Angry with the government brother and I am numb as shit
Take a chance and run the risk of shaking hands with scum to get a couple grams,
I catch a lick but I can’t get enough of it
Focalin to stay awake, Xanny just to sleep at night
Trouble with addiction causing friction now I’m demonized
Staring at the reaper’s eyes
I don’t think nobody else can save me but you’re free to try
Catch another felony and I’ll be facing three to five
Running from reality, won’t let my children see my eyes
'Stead of playing hide and seek with him
I’m playing seek and hide
If I end up overdosing dead, nobody’d be surprised
A relief from pain in exchange for altered brain chemistry
A ball and chain, it seem they always make the same recipe
Profit off the sick and poor, it’s not a major mystery
They monetize the cure and lace the cure you gave me with disease
Open wide and swallow me, hope my son don’t follow me
Told my girl don’t coddle me and told my friend don’t father me
Go away don’t bother me, just please don’t let my mama see
Sick without a remedy unless I get the pharmacy