| Hey I still recall the day the doctor told me that I was sick
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| And my mind keeps going back it was a trip
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| Look I was thinkin He ain’t know the facts
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| Probably cause my heart couldn’t get a hold of that
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| He said that I was terminal and that it spread quick
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| And my whole body was infected I’m desperate
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| My minds racing at this point I wanna exit
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| Cause all His tests suggested I be dead quick
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| But honestly man I really shoulda seen the signs
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| I was blind no I couldn’t read in between the lines
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| I was numb so I couldn’t feel my fever climb
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| But my whole system was foul (fowl) like comedic lines
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| No way to treat it fine
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| I staggered out like I was drinkin wine
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| I wasn’t even tryna think about of my plans for the evenin time
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| All I could think was I was weak and dyin
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| I was reminded of the life that I would leave behind
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| And so
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| I know it’s headed for me soon and I’m terrified
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| I’m afraid of what’s coming and I’m scared to die
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| But it ain’t lookin good for me, now it ain’t lookin good for me
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| I know it’s headed for me soon and I’m terrified
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| I’m afraid of what’s coming and I’m scared to die
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| But it ain’t lookin good for me, now it ain’t lookin good for me
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| Now I got home and it hit me in the worst way
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| I’ve been sick with this disease since my birthday
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| I was ridden with symptoms since my first day
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| Head to toe my whole system in the worst state
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| I was mentally ill, I was futilely mind
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| Darkened in my understanding was a student of crime
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| Havin eyes couldn’t see cause I was truthfully blind
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| Havin ears couldn’t hear but couldn’t do any signs
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| Throat was an open grave, tongue used for the lies
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| Snake venom under lips which I would use to divide
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| Had chips on my shoulders was wounded aside
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| Both my lungs collapsed inhalin 2nd hand pride
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| Below the waist was just more of the same
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| Feet swift to shed blood or somethin more was to gain
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| Man it’s bad blood simply pourin through my veins
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| Can’t ignore it anymore, ain’t the story the same, I was in pain so
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| My whole life been exposed as dark
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| My disease had my deeds hittin off the mark
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| But I had loved my illness even from the start
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| Look everything was a symptom of my broken heart
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| It pumped corruption to every single part of me
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| Its pumped death and deception through arteries
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| My direction was set to invest in reflect n deception
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| Threat n my best n my death wasn’t far from me
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| Cause I tried to beat the symptoms now
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| It wouldn’t matter cause my heart would keep me livin foul
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| I was helpless and hopeless it’s endin now
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| Unless I get a new heart well this is how
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| I heard that there were others with the same plight
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| But there was One begotten Son who can save life
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| And His heart was so perfect He gave life
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| My heart of stones been exchanged I’ve been changed right?
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| I know it’s headed for me soon and I’m terrified
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| I’m afraid of what’s coming and I’m scared to die
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| But it ain’t lookin good for me now it ain’t lookin good for me
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| I was told that God’s standard is so high. |
| My broken heart kept me from meetin
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| His standard, so I just kept fallin short over and over and overagain.
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| And there was really nothing I could do, it was not looking good for me.
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| I guess my question for you is, since God’s standard is perfection and none of
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| us meet it, how do you plan on getting by? |
| I know how I do, and to be honest I
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| ain’t worried about a thang |