| I waste my time on my whole life
|
| Hold my thoughts cause I’ve been sleep deprived
|
| I waste my life in broke mind
|
| Hold my words cause they never come out right
|
| I’m trying really hard to be someone you’d like
|
| I’m trying really hard to feel like I’ll be fine
|
| I’m trying really hard and maybe I’ll find my reflection
|
| In life and all that unkind
|
| Can’t I be a little self sure
|
| Self secure
|
| On that I’m not all that I think I am
|
| Can’t I get a little control
|
| Open my doors
|
| On that I’m not all that bad as I think I am
|
| I don’t really care for what I have left because I’ve fucked myself up so much
|
| I might deserve this mess and
|
| Fuck all this love, I hate to admit
|
| I’m really like this
|
| Scum piece of shit
|
| And I know I could be brighter
|
| Yeah, I know I could aim higher
|
| And I know I should think lighter
|
| I know I would be fine if I was a trier
|
| Yeah, I hate how I can’t let myself hang low and if I didn’t speak at all I
|
| think that I would let it go
|
| But if I knew how I hurt
|
| Well, I would promise to let you know
|
| I’ve been feeling Goddamn low and I just can’t let it go
|
| Do you remember 2013
|
| From then on I wished my life was unseen
|
| Cause I hate who I could have been
|
| Let myself slit up my skin
|
| And drown all my dreams
|
| In the sink
|
| I’m sorry maybe I should have tried harder
|
| Jumped from a bridge that was just that little bit higher
|
| I’m sorry my words can’t be any sharper
|
| I’d cut up my mind and set the remains on fire
|
| At least you could have said I’m gone on the drugs
|
| But I am sober now and I still seem to fuck up
|
| And I’m sorry I can’t accept all your love
|
| It wears me off
|
| Leave me in my head because that’s already tiring enough
|
| I waste my time on my whole life
|
| Hold my thoughts cause I’ve been sleep deprived
|
| I waste my life in broke mind
|
| Hold my words cause they never come out right
|
| I’m trying really hard to be someone you’d like
|
| I’m trying really hard to feel like I’ll be fine
|
| I’m trying really hard and maybe I’ll find my reflection
|
| In life and all that unkind |