| Sometimes the summer sun
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| Can be so unforgiving
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| And the shorter autumn days
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| Make it easy to confuse existing and living
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| And winter’s a far cry from
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| That time when not waking up anxious and alone
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| Was all I needed to be inspired
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| That was a beautiful day to be tired
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| I haven’t smiled since
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| You hit reset and erased last year
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| Now my mind is always racing
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| At top speed towards brick walls
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| I’m trying so hard to slow it down
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| By counting my breath for 30 minutes every day
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| And doing my very best to sit still
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| Now it’s a terrible life to feel ill
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| Yeah, it’s a terrible life to feel ill
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| I keep waking up halfway through that skin graft
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| And reading that same list of missing aircraft
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| Can’t seem to pick which one I wish I’d been on
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| Can’t seem to turn the voice in my head down
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| The one that’s saying that it wishes you were still around
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| And now my stomach’s always empty, and my days are always full
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| Of wondering if a ceiling light would be strong enough
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| And hoping that I can’t hold my breath long enough
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| Whether I’m swinging or submerged
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| Whether you have to cut me down
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| Or drag me out after I drown
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| Maybe I’m best just skipping town
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| Instead of holding on to something that I never had
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| And praying things would go from worse to bad
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| Now that every night’s a night to be sad |