Lyrics Solid - The Holdup

Solid

If I had everything I dreamed of
Everything I ever needed
Would it still be hard to breathe in
Tell me would I still not sleep then
If I had everything I wanted
Money and a new apartment
Pretty girls at every party
Tell me would that make me solid
This shit ain’t about the lack of money that I’ve got
This shit ain’t about the lack of women that are hot
This shit can’t be fixed with anything I’ve ever bought
This shit goes way deeper than I think I’ve ever thought
So I lay there
Praying everyday it goes away and
Breathing, my only escape is when I’m dreaming
Pleading, tell me that I’m not the only one
Punish me for something but I can’t remember what
Am I freak cause the only thing I fear is my mind
Am I weak cause I’m tripping when you say I seem fine
Do I need someone else to help me keep it in line
Cause believe me I’m trying, I’m trying
If I had everything I dreamed of
Everything I ever needed
Would it still be hard to breathe in
Tell me would I still not sleep then
If I had everything I wanted
Money and a new apartment
Pretty girls at every party
Tell me would that make me solid
Bottles of some pills on the nightstand
Guess I gotta take 'em everytime I get up (everytime I get up)
Could be taking these for my lifespan
If I don’t ever figure out what’s got me screwed up
So I’m meditatin' on the daily
Doing yoga with some ladies
How come no one’s got the answers
Who the fuck is gonna save me
Guess it’s me and no one else
I’m the one that needs the help
I ain’t throwing in the towel
I ain’t sittin' on the shelf
Am I freak cause the only thing I fear is my mind
Am I weak cause I’m tripping when you say I seem fine
Do I need someone else to help me keep it in line
Cause believe me I’m trying, I’m trying
If I had everything I dreamed of
Everything I ever needed
Would it still be hard to breathe in
Tell me would I still not sleep then
If I had everything I wanted
Money and a new apartment
Pretty girls at every party
Tell me would that make me solid
Guess we’re gonna see what I’m made of, straight up
I’m the only thing that I’m afraid of, baby
Feeling like I’m going through some bullshit lately
Wonder is it me or everyone who’s crazy
Knew I must keep myself distracted, acting
Like everything’s chill until my stash is passing
Trying to accept that peace ain’t everlasting
Tell me that I’m fine is really all I’m asking
If I had everything I dreamed of
Everything I ever needed
Would it still be hard to breathe in
Tell me would I still not sleep then
If I had everything I wanted
Money and a new apartment
Pretty girls at every party
Tell me would that make me solid