| Her mother holds her father
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| While she weeps on his shoulder
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| Their daughters brought down the isle
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| But this isn’t her wedding day
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| The coffins on the alter
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| And the incense burns my eyes
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| The priest starts by saying
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| «God, why take this life away?»
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| At this point her mother
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| Breaks down in sorrow
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| She calls me a monster
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| And tears stream down
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| Her face (her face)
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| What am I to say?
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| My eyes fill too
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| But not of tears, but of hatred
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| Self loathing, foreboding
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| I feel their eyes stare upon me
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| And I turn, to face them
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| The dead eyed population
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| Staring me down
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| Wishing it was me they were putting in the ground
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| So I unfold the paper
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| I can’t take the pain much longer…
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| «I can’t put words to paper
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| On the pain we all feel
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| But I know as you all stare at me
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| That I’m the one to blame
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| So condone me, disown me
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| Bring me down to my knees
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| I deserve it all anyway»
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| My voice starts to break
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| As tears stream down my face
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| It’s not over, but it’s over
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| I can’t take this heartbreak
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| Anymore
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| So we filed out and the music played
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| Her coffin wearing bouquets
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| Her mother’s crying, we were crying
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| The weather reflected our pain
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| We all drove down to the hole where we will put her
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| Six feet down, but raising up from me
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| I stood alone in the pouring rain
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| As the days go by
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| I find it harder to get up
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| I’m asphyxiated by your presence
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| Like a shadow over my shoulder
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| But truth is, I don’t care
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| I’d rather feel something there
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| Than never feel you here at all
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| I wish I got to hold you close
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| One last time
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| And not let go
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| Not travel to the great divine
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| Because I knew that would be my last goodbye
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| I won’t see you on the other side
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| I stood alone in the pouring rain
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| Shrouded by my shame
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| I can’t even hold on to what I love
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| Without it slipping away
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| I tore my own heart out
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| And threw it in her grave
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| I guess I never needed it
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| Standing alone in the pouring rain |